Cassie's Figure Competition Journal

I got into a conversation with my trainer yesterday...went from me saying I couldn't eat our one-year anniversary cake because it was too much sugar and made me sick to him talking about what he ate after his competition, and I told him about you stashing the mini-candies in your bag. I asked if he got irritable, and he said it was horrible, that he wouldn't wish that on anyone, but once you're there at the competition, you feel like you could do it forever. I don't think it's for me, but I'm definitely enjoying living vicariously through you! Best of luck on the next show!!!

I got into a conversation with my trainer yesterday...went from me saying I couldn't eat our one-year anniversary cake because it was too much sugar and made me sick to him talking about what he ate after his competition, and I told him about you stashing the mini-candies in your bag. I asked if he got irritable, and he said it was horrible, that he wouldn't wish that on anyone, but once you're there at the competition, you feel like you could do it forever. I don't think it's for me, but I'm definitely enjoying living vicariously through you! Best of luck on the next show!!!

Your trainer is soooo right! I am SO irritable right now it is crazy! This morning i was working out next to a friend and she kept talking (and kind of making me lose my concentration) and she was talking quietly so I couldn't here her above my music so i kept having to take off my headphones to hear what she had to say. I was getting SO grumpy I was tempted to move to a different machine! Thennnn about 20 minutes later I'm on the stairstepper minding my own business and a guy comes up and asks how much longer i have because he wants my machine. I tell him 15 minutes. This guy annoys the SNOT out of me when he gets on the stair stepper because he leans on the machine so much that he is actually in a bent over position the WHOLE time hes on it. So he cranks it up to a super high level, then leans on with with everything hes got for like 30 minutes. DRIVES ME INSANE! What the hell is the purpose? Honestly! This guy also has the audacity to regularly interrupt my weight routine to tell me that i'm doing my exercises wrong, when he truly doesn't have a clue what hes talking about. So anyways, he asks if he can have my machine and i tell him 15 minutes, then decide to just quit early and give him the machine because i was exhuasted and ready to be done anyways. So I tell him he can have the machine as long as he promises to use proper form and quit hanging on the damn thing the whole time hes working out. My friend (the one that wouldn't stop talking previously) was totally cracking up that i was so blunt. Usually I can tolerate this kind of stuff but right now I'm beyond hostile. My fiance baked some brownies last night and I seriously wanted to punch him for it. Luckily, i practiced self control and went to bed instead.

I feel bad for those around me right now. I'm really trying to be nice and cheery.. but it really is a struggle.

With that said, so you're not having any anniversary cake this year? What if you made a healthier cake that you could eat? Mmmm... i could go for some cake right now...

Your right pinky finger? Isn't that the one that got half bitten off by the piranha!!?

It'll be here before you know it!

With that said, so you're not having any anniversary cake this year? What if you made a healthier cake that you could eat? Mmmm... i could go for some cake right now...

I do have a great cake recipe that I like, but my problem is that all of those baked goods put weight on me immediately! The good news is that the protein brownies I've been making don't seem to have that effect, so they've become a regular treat. (Sorry to talk about brownies again!)

Best thing so far that I've found for dessert is a tofu mousse...basically just blend some tofu with some melted dark chocolate and a little agave syrup. Easy and delicious!

With that said, so you're not having any anniversary cake this year? What if you made a healthier cake that you could eat? Mmmm... i could go for some cake right now...

I do have a great cake recipe that I like, but my problem is that all of those baked goods put weight on me immediately! The good news is that the protein brownies I've been making don't seem to have that effect, so they've become a regular treat. (Sorry to talk about brownies again!)

Best thing so far that I've found for dessert is a tofu mousse...basically just blend some tofu with some melted dark chocolate and a little agave syrup. Easy and delicious!

Mmmm! Tofu mousse! I found a recipe the other day for pumpkin tofu mousse! I can't wait to make it!!! I totally know what you mean about baked goods putting weight on you. I blow up like a blimp if i let myself eat that stuff. I'm sure its going to be even worse once i get off this diet as my body is so deprived of calories right now its going to try to store everything that i eat. Not really looking forward to that!

That's also what my trainer said, that once he got off the diet, he put on about 30 lbs really fast. So watch out!!

I found a pumpkin protein cookie recipe I might try. I bought some canned pumpkin just in case! hehe

This morning i was working out next to a friend and she kept talking (and kind of making me lose my concentration) and she was talking quietly so I couldn't here her above my music so i kept having to take off my headphones to hear what she had to say

That drives me crazy too!!! You would think that after a few times of having to remove your headphones and turn to listen - they would have the sense or courtesy to stop talking so much! I was on the ellipticals once and two ladies on the two machines to my left were deep in conversation - and not quietly either - I got to hear all about their husbands late night outings, their kids being sick, all about their latest doctor visit (eewwwww!!!). Seriously wanted to change machines, but none were available. And the whole time they are talking they are just ambling along, never breaking a sweat, or obviously not getting winded (at least not from working out!) drives me insane!
Feel free to vent all this week if need be Cassie...we are here for ya!

That's also what my trainer said, that once he got off the diet, he put on about 30 lbs really fast. So watch out!!

I found a pumpkin protein cookie recipe I might try. I bought some canned pumpkin just in case! hehe

I can totally see that happening! When you're on this EXTREME diet for so long then start eating again its almost like the switch that tells you that you're full and tells you to STOP EATING gets turned off or something. Its like you're body has been deprived for so long that after you go off the diet your body is playing catch up trying to put on fat stores that it has lost. Lately, I feel like i can eat and eat and eat and while i feel full, I'm still craving food. Not chocolate or treats (well yes those too I guess) but mostly food. I'm wondering how i'm going to do after the next competition when i can start eating again. After the last one i gave myself one day to eat whatever i wanted, then i knew i had to get right back on track as i had another show in only 5 weeks. After this next show i won't have anything to look forward to (other than the holidays!) so won't feel like i have to stick to a clean diet. Its going to be interesting for sure! I'm planning on taking one day (Sunday) after the show to eat whatever I want. Then Monday after the show i'll go back to a clean diet and continue from there allowing myself one cheat meal per week. I don't plan on going crazy on things like cookies, candy, fast food or junk food after the show. I'm mostly excited to add in things like fruit, nuts/nut butter, dairy, and other healthy foods. I'm also excited to start playing with recipes again and start making some nice healthy fall meals treats. I love to cook and bake and haven't lately because its just no fun when you can't eat it. Needless to say...I'm really looking forward to the show... and REALLY REALLY looking forward to just getting it overwith!

Pumpkin protein cookies sound awesome! So does some nice pumpkin bread!!!

Know what you mean about crappy form. I was shadow boxing once, and some guy walks in the room, and starts hitting the bag with no gloves on, like a drunk Baboon.

I said, you might want to put some gloves on incase you hurt yourself.

He says, oh don't worry I've done this loads of times before.

I'm thinking yeah sure you have.

When he left he went on a Treadmill, so I gloved up, and went on the bag, purposely in his eyeline, and yes he clocked me a couple of times. I wanted him to do that as well, just so he could see how it should be done.

I mean I'm not perfect, but god that guy looked like he was having really bad spasms in his right Arm.

Not my problem if he crocks himself. I told him, so if he'd ever done it again and bruised a Knuckle or something like that.

Know what you mean about crappy form. I was shadow boxing once, and some guy walks in the room, and starts hitting the bag with no gloves on, like a drunk Baboon.

I said, you might want to put some gloves on incase you hurt yourself.

He says, oh don't worry I've done this loads of times before.

I'm thinking yeah sure you have.

When he left he went on a Treadmill, so I gloved up, and went on the bag, purposely in his eyeline, and yes he clocked me a couple of times. I wanted him to do that as well, just so he could see how it should be done.

I mean I'm not perfect, but god that guy looked like he was having really bad spasms in his right Arm.

Not my problem if he crocks himself. I told him, so if he'd ever done it again and bruised a Knuckle or something like that.

This kind of stuff drives me nuts! I was in the weight room one time watching a couple of idiots lift weights. They were *trying* to do something that looked like a lying lat pullover but were totally not doing it correctly and they had the heaviest weights they could handle. Idiot one says to idiot two (as hes holding his weight getting ready to do another set) "so uh, whats this exercise supposed to do?" and idiot two responds "uh I don't know. Saw some guy in here doing it the other day and thought it looked cool... like it was a killer exercise". *FACEPALM!* Seriously people amaze me sometimes!

So true. Some kids, too young to lift weights, trying ot lift weights. One of them looked about 12, and he tried to use a bar with weight on, but when he couldn't remove one of the clips he gave up.

Proof he should never have been trying in the first place

I once watched a guy tell his girlfriend that she was doing awesome, and should keep up the good work.

I'm all for encouragement and unity and all that but...

She was doing seated bicep curls on a machine. That had probably 10lbs on it. I counted while I was doing squats. She did at least 75. Errg.

5 days to go! The countdown is ON like donkeykong. I'm soooo excited to get up on stage and SOOOOO ready to be done with this diet. I'm munching on celery as I type this. I wish it was a big fat piece of chocolate cake instead of stupid ole celery! No matter how hard i try to pretend its chocolate it still tastes like crappy ole celery.

So today marks the first day of HELL week. Today, tomorrow, and Wednesday I will be attempting to drown my organs as i gag down 2 gallons of water each day. In addition, today i begin my glycogen depletion which means no carbs except for 1 bowl of oatmeal in the morning and veggies for the rest of the day. Has anybody ever heard the country song "Poor Poor Pitiful Me"? I think Patty Loveless or somebody sings it.. chorus goes like this: "poooooor poooooor pitiful me, poor poor pitiful me". Well that pretty much sums up how i'm feeling today. Feeling pretty sorry for myself.

In case anybody else out there is crazy enough to decide to do a figure competition I would like to offer one small piece of advice.. NEVER DO 2 BACK TO BACK COMPETITIONS! IT IS HELL! H-E-L-L. It may seem like a good idea at the time that you decide to do it, however I can tell you based on my own experience that it is not a good idea. It really stinks. I've decided that after this competition I am going to take a break for a while, get my body fat up to a healthy level, and just enjoy life for a few months. Next spring I may sign up for another competition, however if I do I will be dieting for 12-16 weeks and I will do 1 show and then take a break. At this time, I have been dieting since March 30th and I am soooo done.

Other than this stupid diet, I must say all in all I'm feeling pretty good. Had a great full-body workout this morning and have been getting lots of exercise since as i walk back and forth from the bathroom every 5 minutes. I'm planning on hitting the gym again on my lunch break, then will work out twice tomorrow, twice wednesday, once on thursday, and off friday and saturday. Sunday I will be busy shoving m&ms, reesies, cheese cake, cookies, ice cream, and pasta in my face all day so most likely won't have time to exercise that day either.

I hope everybody had a great Halloween and is having a wonderful Monday so far!

Cassie

Never mind, hopefully when you're done you'll look as ripped as a Walnut, and just as hard, so keep eating the celery.

Maybe you could mix it with some of your Water in a blender and make smoothies?

Never mind, hopefully when you're done you'll look as ripped as a Walnut, and just as hard, so keep eating the celery.

Maybe you could mix it with some of your Water in a blender and make smoothies?

Great idea! I could throw some chicken in there too just for fun... and maybe a little ice to make it really exciting!