New Body for December 2009!!

tbh, if I was doin the lady gaga bit, I'd be more concerned about the shoes. I do not have the ability to wear anything that sits more than 1/4'' off the ground!

Ironically that's a good thing. To some it might look good, but people have and can get things like Tendonitis, Calf problems, damaged Ankles and in one case on TV, I saw an X-ray of someone who had Ankle bones kind of shear, and they had to apparently then have Ankle pins, to correct the bone damage, because they wore heels quite a lot.

Apart from having flat duck feet and being unbalanced and largely uncoordinated, I have torn an Achilles tendon before. Every single therapist/doctor I worked with after that told me that my spike heel days were over. I didn't have the heart to tell them that they'd never really begun.

Can read my, can read my poker face...OMG! Had a blast tonight! Lots of people wanted to take pictures with me. I did, nobody will recognize me anyways. I wore my black tight mini dress. Had the tunic w/ feathers, boots & hat w/black veil and straigthen hair (my hair is long) and added some of the strands of the silver streamers (attached them by braiding into hair). My make up was AWESOME! I don't use makeup (don't know how to) but my friend (dressed as cat) did it for me. God she is sooo good. Also added some of the streamers all over my dress. Honestly, looked like a mourning christmas tree . My hubby said I looked HOT. My kids were invited to a halloween party, so when we dropped them off, they went crazy with me! I thought I was the real Lady Gaga . They were taking pictures with me & asking me to sing "poker face", singing with me, dancing & didn't want to let us go to our party. I got my 15 minutes of fame . My hubby was a rocker warewolf. Leather jacket, jeans, black boots, warewolf mask w/ long hair & metal chains hanging all over & an electric guitar (my son's guitar hero ). My friend: a sexy cat & her husband: a cat on diapers? very confusing. But we had a lot of fun. We danced, got lots of candy (gave them away-but kept the chocolates ) & ate. Before, I had gone trick o treating around the neighborhood w/ my youngest son-a modern vampire/rocker. He looked very cool too. He also had a guitar hero. My oldest (party pooper) didn't wear any custom/mask. But he had lots of fun on my behalf. He was very proud of me, cause he kept holding my hands & hugging me (he wanted everybody to see he was with me). Anyways...great night & great day to. My day went like this:
Workout: Walked in intervals (30min) & did stairs (15min)
Snack: Banana split protein shake
Breakfast: Tuna fish sandwich (whole wheat) & 1/2 cup d. pepsi
Snack: 5 strawberries & 1/4 cup mixed nuts & 1/2 string cheese
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad w/ 1 slice avocado & 1 bottle of water
Snack: small orange & 1/4 cup cottage cheese
Workout: Dance, Dance, Dance
Dinner: Grilled chicken breast, stir fry veggies & side salad & 1 bottle of water (at party) they had lots of fried foods & lots of sweets, but chose carefully
Workout: Kept dancing-non stop
Snack: 1 bite size Kit Kat bar & 1 bottle of water (THIRSTY w/ all that dancing)
STILL DANCING (until 11:30-went to pick up our kids) Sad the party was over for us .
But hopefully, we will have next year...

Sunday: Hectic day. Started my day with a little HIIT. Almost got kicked out of the house with all the jumping noise . Finished my workout & was going to have a protein smoothie, but knew I was not only going to be kicked out, but banned from my own house. So, decide to have a simple omelette. Went food shopping & bought my weekly healthy necessities. Got home made lunch & started with the cleaning. Took me most of the day. At 5 my kids wanted me to go with them to play basketball. But they changed their mind and ended up playing football (not my cup of tea). The only thing I know is you catch the ball, don't let anybody jump on you & cross the line for a touchdown. Honestly, I was running around like a headless chicken. At one point caught the ball kept running & made a touchdown...for the other team . Hey! nobody told me which way . My oldest son was sooo happy. My youngest was mad (they always play against each other). Fixed the problem! Made a touchdown for my team! I think...No, I'm sure. Anyway, we won by one point. UNBELIEVABLE...they invited me again. Either they like laughing at me or with me, but they did. At home, my kids were arguing who I was going to play with next time (I'm loving it ). Made dinner & then, they started playing around w/ my Hula Hoop & somehow it turned into a big competition. Why? Cause in my house, everything turns into competition (not a friendly one). Well, it lasted 1 hour. I don't drink alcohol at all, but I was definately drunk with all that turning . They even wanted to keep on going. Why? Coudn't accept I won. BOYS! I still love them. Decided to stop & write on my log before I pass out. Well, my crazy day went like this:
Workout: HIIT jumping for 30 minutes & 60 squats
Breakfast: Simple egg white omellete w/ whole wheat bread, 1/2 banana & 1/2 cup of d. pepsi & 1 cup of water
Walked around the supermarket for 20 minutes
Snack: small bowl of fruits & 1 cup of water
CLEAN, CLEAN & MORE CLEANING...
Lunch: Grilled chicken breast w/ veggies & big chef salad & 1 bottle of water
Snack: 1/4 cottage cheese & bits of pineapples & 1 cup of water
Workout: Play football for 2 hours (more like running around )
Dinner: whole wheat pasta w/ veggies & 1 grilled turkey sausage w/ side salad & 1 bottle of water
Workout: Hula Hoop for 1 hour (CRAZY)
Snack: Strawberry protein smoothie (YUMM!)
Today was exhausting, crazy & a bit of a learning experince (with football). I say: It's never to late .

You sure had a good workout! I really do enjoy reading your log & your family time! It's awesome
Keep it up woman.. you're doing a GREAT JOB!

Thanks Nokie173! Love having you and everyone who reads my entries with me in this journey. I try to be as honest as possible. Sometimes is hard, since I also try to keep some things private. But it's freeing to talk about weight issues & specially, my "ugly belly" issue which has been one of my biggest secret/shame. It might be something silly to everybody else, but to me is a very shamefull thing. I used to wear & sleep in all sorts of shapewear (to firm it & keeo it tight )& wear those cute blouses that kinda look like maternity clothes. All to hide the bulge. I've been ok with my weight, but the belly & the fact that I have big boobs don't help. My hubby says my belly doesn't look bad at all, but it does to me. It's in my head...CONSTANTLY. Specially when I'm naked. CONFESSION: I've been reading The Secret. In one of the chapters it talks about the secret & your body & the three steps: Ask, Believe & Recieve. It tells you to have a mental picture of the "perfect body" & weight you want, believing you already have it because the positive & wishful thinking attracts it & the Universe will make it happen (Receive). Since I'm a firm believer of POSITIVE thinking (tell me about it!) & to prove it, have had my "Dream board" in my bedroom for the past 3 years, decided to do it. Taped a few cut outs on my mirror, among them Jennifer Lopez's butt, Megan Fox's curves, etc. I know...too much to ask . But, every time I look at myself naked, It's really HARD to believe I already have a flat belly when you see it bulging over your panties . Therefore, it makes it hard to receive. But, I decided to "change" my toughts & BELIEVE & RECEIVE. So, I say: Hey! If the Universe wants to be giving to me, I will gladly receive. Ok, back to reality. I'm grateful with what I have....just need a little improvement. NO! BIG improvement . But, I'm working on it. Like I said before, I'm in the "Renovation/Reconstruction" phase. Waiting to finish my looong, haaard, slooow process . But hanging in there! Will see what happens. Well, have to go. Will post later on. My workout clock is ticking...You see, never ending job

Well, regardless of how you feel about the belly (which trust me, we all have *something*), the cool thing is, you seem to be able to get past it each and every day, which is amazing. To work the way you are towards your goals is truly inspiring.

Plus, it sounds like those kids certainly don't care! Driving you up and down the basketball court and across the football field. To be totally honest, I'm more than a little jealous (:

You're right, the stomach thing could sound a bit silly to some, or one of those, "why do you do that, when you don't need to things".

Personally having read what you said, I understand this is a minor psychological thing you have, that you can get over, but it is you living in your skin, not your husband. He clearly sounds like he's saying what he feels is right and you're certainly not someone, who thinks you'd look better weighing 90lbs, which you wouldn't, so your want to change this a bit, is perfectly normal, healthly and is something you shouldn't feel concern or worry about.

It's another part of you, you want to change for the better. There's no shame in wanting healthy, physical change, it's admirable and more people should do it, for numerous reasons.

So don't ever feel shame about yourself. Making the changes and being slow, steady, patient and not hard on yourself, will slowly develop more acceptance of how you look, which ultimately is a key thing you are striving for.

You're not redefining yourself as someone completely different, that people may hate or not recognise. it's not about new clothes, attitude to people, etc etc, except for how you look, because you have had a few physical issues, but never issues with personality or humanitarian ability, as far as I can see.

So the main thing here is not to be ashamed of yourself. You are clearly from an emotional and mental perspective, quite a beautiful person. Your attitude on here says it all and if anything about you is a reason to feel shame, then we should all shoulder some of your shame, because we none of us are perfect, and have one or two things we look back on wish we hadn't done or said.

However this is not the past, this is the here and now and the transition for you, to a better, brighter future, so don't use your past to judge yourself, use your current efforts to judge yourself.

You're not doing anything in vain, or to achieve something impossible, so don't worry about it for a moment. Just be proud of yourself and proud of the person you are today. We know it's been hard sometimes and in ways good people shouldn't have to know, but it's made you the person you are today, and for whatever bad has occured, I would think it has never changed the person you are inside, which is a very positive thing.

Where others could have crumbled, or reacted badly towards life, you have remained the sort of person you should be, and many others should strive to be like.

You have no shame, except in your head. Use achievement and associated pride to banish shame.

Your family clearly have nothing to feel shame about where you're concerned, you shouldn't either. Neither do we. We are proud of you, are you?

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Lesplease... you're right! they don't care. But is a good thing for me cause their treatment makes me feel younger, keeps me in shape & in a weird way, accepted by them (they forget who I am & how old...cool ). Also, love your beautiful wiggles & his hat collection LOL.
Boss Man...Thank you for your beautiful words. You are soooo kind. Are you a poet? Certainly a motivational speaker, cause everytime I read your comments, makes me feel good about myself & makes me want to do better & work harder. I've never thought of being proud of myself, but thankful. As for my body image, I do feel a little shame, not going to lie. But like you say, I can get over it & I will... I promise. I don't want a perfect body (I wish ), but I'm aiming for a stronger, healthier and why not?..a better looking me . I'm working hard at it (sometimes struggling) but I'm doing it for me & in the long run, for my family. Like my grandma used to say: "Always make Yourself happy first, cause when your happy, everybody around you IS happy". My new version: "Always make yourself happy & healthy, cause when your are, everybody around you will be". Well, with that said, my day went like this:
Breakfast: Oatmeal w/ eggwhite & 1/2 banana & 1 cup of water
Workout: Abs & upper body (3 sets of 20) standing pushups (can't do regular pushups), squats, forward lunges, shoulder press, bicep curls, mountain climber, dips, bicycle & squats w/ 5lbs weight. 3 sets of 25 seconds plank. Followed by: 6 sets of 20 seconds sprint & 30 sec walk. (Lord Have Mercy!)
Snack: Strawberry protein shake w/ 1/2 banana (YUMM!) & 1 cup of water (15 min later)
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad w/ 1 slice of avocado & lt. italian dressing & 1 bottle of water
Snack: 1/4 cottage cheese w/ bits of pineapple & 1 cup of water
Dinner: 1/2 cup of brown rice, 3 oz grilled tilapia & side salad & 1 bottle of water
Workout: Walked for 30 minutes & HIIT jumping (20 minutes)
Snack: 1/2 protein smoothie
Feel very tired & ready to shower & hit the sack . Ready to conquer another day. Bring it on!

Lesplease... you're right! they don't care. But is a good thing for me cause their treatment makes me feel younger, keeps me in shape & in a weird way, accepted by them (they forget who I am & how old...cool ). Also, love your beautiful wiggles & his hat collection LOL.

WIGGLES IS A LIL LADY AND YOU WILL DO WELL TO REMEMBER THAT, MISSY!!

Lesplease... you're right! they don't care. But is a good thing for me cause their treatment makes me feel younger, keeps me in shape & in a weird way, accepted by them (they forget who I am & how old...cool ). Also, love your beautiful wiggles & his hat collection LOL.

WIGGLES IS A LIL LADY AND YOU WILL DO WELL TO REMEMBER THAT, MISSY!!

LoL.... Awww.. come on Les, give the lady a break... she was Tired....
P.S. Wiggles is spoiled!

Sorry Les ...Big Mistake. Need glasses.

Lesplease... you're right! they don't care. But is a good thing for me cause their treatment makes me feel younger, keeps me in shape & in a weird way, accepted by them (they forget who I am & how old...cool ). Also, love your beautiful wiggles & his hat collection LOL.

WIGGLES IS A LIL LADY AND YOU WILL DO WELL TO REMEMBER THAT, MISSY!!

LoL.... Awww.. come on Les, give the lady a break... she was Tired....
P.S. Wiggles is spoiled!

Wiggy's not spoiled! She's a princess!

Newmami, you don't have to make promises at all . Promises however well intentioned can be broken. Why let yourself if you missed a target by even a small amount?

I never do it anymore, I might say things like you have my word, or I guarantee I will try ....., but I don't like a promise, as it seems 100% completely final, as if even with the best will in the world, to fail would be a total betrayal or letdown of the people you make promises to.

No I'm not a poet, but I'm glad that I am able to say things that make a difference to people. That's always been the primary reason for my being here. It's not to look good, look clever, or anything like that, it's because good people deserve help to be better, so whatever I do that helps is a plus.

People like you are the only reason I need to be here. I'm proud of my actions and proud of the actions of those I communicate with.

The main thing you need to do is not make promises, just remind yourself you're worth this, and worth the time you take to improve yourself. That way there is not as much pressure to succeed, so it remains more enjoyable.