brentyboy wrote:Start out by making a list of all the toxic relationships in your life:
4. "They", "Them", "others"
Start working on each one. Actually start working on #5 and 1-4 will look after themselves.
My 2 cents, find something you like to do if the gym bores you. Try tennis, karate, swimming, anything you like to do, you will do it more often. Especially if you do it in a group of people. Freinds who like the same thing you do will encourage you to do it more often. Also making friends will increase your self esteem so to that end, you can join something that is not exercise related. Help out at a food pantry or homeless shelter, join a knitting circle or take an art class. When you do something that you see value in, you will see value in yourself.
It is hard when the people who love you make fun of you. Usually it is just their way of letting you know that you need help. They don't know better. I think you may need to tell them to back off, i know it is hard to do. If you cant seem to do it, as much as I dislike the diets, groups like weight watchers or TOPS have other women there who are having the same problems as you. Just being able to say out loud your issues can usually help, especially if someone is there to pat your back when you cry.