Day 126Legs aching from college, nothing new there.
Breakfast - 3 shreaded wheat.
Breaktime - bought a corner yougurt but had a couple choc hoops in sort of like wheetos but only a few, was around 215 calories i believe.
Lunch - 4 pieces bread, with peanut butter rest filled with tuna.
Dinner - Not the best of choices i suppose, Jacket potato, homemade pizza (peppers, cheese ham)
But parents made it and limited to what i could of had

It's frustrating because say i had great nutrition 100% of the time im sure i would of met the goals i wanted by now

Looking at some point tonight to find some energy to do weight lifting, maybe i should boil a couple of eggs, for after?
Workout, 3 sets of push ups 10
Military press 27kg weight 3 sets of reps 6-8
Shoulder press same
However back started aching and struggled to do dont know where im tired from college or where im just useless and not good at anything.
Deadlifts again back aching probably using bad form knowing me can't get anything right so it wouldn't surprise me
Curls 3 sets reps 6-8
Rows same
Bench press 5 sets first 2 sets were 15 reps others were 3, when working out i feel pressure on my neck like it's tense, not hurt or nothing not sure if that's ment to though, feel bloated and fat as usual.
Done 4 eggs, had just the whites though and they go so much quicker in barely a minute.
I'm starting to think is this really worth it, i don't want to give up but im getting fed up, i don't think it's ideal for me to use barbell for working out other than excercises like benching, i can't afford any heavier dumbell weights, can't get a part time job, starting to lose patience with my course as i keep getting things wrong/slow. Can't even take weights apart without cutting my hand.
Man im fucking useless!
Not asking for attention or nothing either, i'm just saying how i feel.