If I were you Jocelyn, I wouldn't totally rule out Florida
. You have some time left before you are planning to go, so you can look positively at this and try to feel optimistic about the recouperative powers of your body.
I totally empathise with you about how you must be feeling and although I've never been through something like that personally, these things can work as a great teacher and help you to understand what sort of added stength you have, that you did't realise existed within you.
Adversity comes with its own heartaches, pain and emotional difficulties, but it can also teach people things and be a kind of life affirming thing, that helps rediefine people in some way.
So don't look at this as some kind of cruel fate, or something that can control how you feel emotionally, but moreso something you can learn from and if you're sensible and keep believing in how the outcome may progress from here on in, you can try to stay strong and keep your diet and mindset more positive.
If you can do any sort of walking, or even something like exercise bike work, to keep the exercise going in some way, then think about it, because it will help to keep you focused and ready for the day when you can get back into more serious exercise again.
This is a chance for you to see how brave, strong and capable you are of overcoming adversity. You can either prevent this from ruling your life, or let it take over, but you might hurt worse in the future, knowing you allowed this difficult situation to claim some of your exercise focus and ruin your dietry habits, than if you stay strong, keep focused, keep smiling through the pain sometimes and know it's only tempoary and you're not in a state where you need intense physio for months, or possibly may lose some function forever, so it could have been much worse.
I know you can get through this strongly, because I have never stopped believing in you. You're a wondeful person who doesn't deserve this, but I know you can overcome this and do it well and with much strength and pride.
I'm very proud of you for continuing to put yourself first and trying to be consistent with your goals and I'm sending you a BIG HUG
and letting you know, that if it all gets a bit much, or you're having one of those days, drop me a message and we'll work things through
As always, I will be here for you
GOOD LUCK and best wishes Jocelyn and don't forget how much you're worth, because you're worth so much to this world and you make people like me happy and richer. You're a fantastic part of the community and a really beautiful person and we will always stand by you okay
I am thinking of you I hope you recover as quickly as is humanly possible.