Jena's Journal.

[MissJenaKay]

Congrats! Are you going to try weighing yourself on a different day for now on?

Yeah, probably. That or I'll continue to weigh twice a week. I'm not sure which.

[feelin-great]

I used to be a side sleeper and it caused me all sorts of problems. Then I bought one of those memory foam pillows and I sleep really comfortably on my back now - it made a world of difference for me

[MissJenaKay]

I used to be a side sleeper and it caused me all sorts of problems. Then I bought one of those memory foam pillows and I sleep really comfortably on my back now - it made a world of difference for me

Inever had problems when Iused to sleep on my side. However, seeping on my back makes me feel awful in the morning. Plus, I'm highly paranoid about snoring. I do everything I can to avoid snoring and sleeping on your back allows your tongue and soft palate to relax backwars into your throat and can cause snoring. Lol. Therefore, I don't sleep on my back. Lol.

[Boss Man]

Try lying in the foetus position. So called because it mimics how a foetus rests in the womb.

You won't elongate your spine fully, because you're in a partially tucked-up position.

It's said to be a good curative option, certainly for minor back ailaments and possibly more serious ones too.

[MissJenaKay]

Try lying in the foetus position. So called because it mimics how a foetus rests in the womb.

You won't elongate your spine fully, because you're in a partially tucked-up position.

It's said to be a good curative option, certainly for minor back ailaments and possiblyore serious ones too.

Problem, Boss, I don't think feotus position will work because curling up makes me feel like I can't breathe. Besides, I can't sleep if my legs are touching. Even when I slept on my side, I had my top leg bent and out infront of the other, knee shin and foot against the mattress.

I think that I'm going to try to sleep on my side tonight, if I can, more than likely I won't be able to and so I'l give up and lie on my tummy.

In any case
Today's totals

Calorie - 1570
Exercise - 323
Net Calories - 1247
Fat - 35
Carbs - 135
Fibre - 14
Sugars - 72
Protein - 115
Sodium - 3184

[MissJenaKay]

I've decided that I'm going to judge my weightloss based on what my weight was at my heaviest. I was heaviest at 250.4, so as of yesterday, I have lost 6.1 pounds. c: I would definitely be pleased to see this be a higher number, but when I think about it, July 22nd (when I weighed 250.4) was only a bit less than four weeks ago. One and a half pounds a week average is not bad. Not bad at all. I just gotta keep pushing along and I'll get to watch my weightloss number go up and the number on the scale and on the tags of my clothing go down. I can't wait for the day that I can go shopping with my friend Jenna (ironic, no?) and we can shop in the same stores in the big city of Chicago and I won't feel like I have to choose long sleeved shirts, loose button downs, and shoes. I won't have to order my jeans online because there is only one store that I know carries jeans that fit me right, I'll be able to wear clothes that I like and that make me feel good. That is one of the things that I get the most excited about: being able to actually express myself in my clothing instead of just trying to find clothes that fit and camouflage the parts that I hate about myself.

On another note, I managed to sleep most of the night on my side, I woke up a few times and a couple of those times woke up on my stomach and so I rolled back to my side. However, the new sleeping postion still did not help at all with waking up with aches, today, my hamstrings are so tight and sore that I can't even touch my toes without my knees bending a little. This is not what I'm used to. I'm normally very flexible; I can touch my toes with my legs straight, lie my torso against the floor when doing a split stretch, lie my chest against my knees when stretching down one leg, and I can do splits. But today, I couldn't even reach my toes. I really don't like this soreness and I try to stretch it out and ease myself deeper into the stretches and it's not working. Anyone have any advice?

One more thing, and it weirds me out just a little. (Probably because I've never been able to do this before.) But even when my arms are relaxed, I can see the bulge of my biceps. More so in my left arm than in my right, but still, it's visible. I don't know how I feel about it. I hope that I can see it because I'm losing fat in my arms, not because my biceps are really getting that much bigger.

In non-weightloss related news, I got my passport photo done yesterday, $10.79 for two little 2x2" photos. And they were horrible looking. I'm a little annoyed. Oh well, if it lets me get on a plane to Europe, then it can be as crappy as it wants. Lol.

Well, this was a long post without much of a reason, but hey, it's my journal, I can't write long pointless posts if I so choose. Lol.

[musculArgirl2]

I've decided that I'm going to judge my weightloss based on what my weight was at my heaviest. I was heaviest at 250.4, so as of yesterday, I have lost 6.1 pounds. c: I would definitely be pleased to see this be a higher number, but when I think about it, July 22nd (when I weighed 250.4) was only a bit less than four weeks ago. One and a half pounds a week average is not bad. Not bad at all. I just gotta keep pushing along and I'll get to watch my weightloss number go up and the number on the scale and on the tags of my clothing go down. I can't wait for the day that I can go shopping with my friend Jenna (ironic, no?) and we can shop in the same stores in the big city of Chicago and I won't feel like I have to choose long sleeved shirts, loose button downs, and shoes. I won't have to order my jeans online because there is only one store that I know carries jeans that fit me right, I'll be able to wear clothes that I like and that make me feel good. That is one of the things that I get the most excited about: being able to actually express myself in my clothing instead of just trying to find clothes that fit and camouflage the parts that I hate about myself.

That day will come for all of us if we stick with it!

[Boss Man]

Perhaps consider doing 5-10 minutes of light Cardio after weights, to see if you can relieve to some extent the DOMS you encourage, which I'm 99.9% sure is what you're experiencing.

[MissJenaKay]

That day will come for all of us if we stick with it!

Can't wait for that day.

Perhaps consider doing 5-10 minutes of light Cardio after weights, to see if you can relieve to some extent the DOMS you encourage, which I'm 99.9% sure is what you're experiencing.

I don't do weights Boss. . . . I don't have any weights here at home. Also... DOMS?? I'm a fitness newb, please don't abbreviations. Lol.

Today's Totals

Calories - 1675
Exercise - 323
Net Calories - 1352
Fat - 30
Carbs - 138
Fibre - 6
Sugar - 75
Protein - 86
Sodium - 1107

In other news, I burned my finger on the grill today and I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I hate doctors. :c

[Boss Man]

Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness. Something that can occur within 24-48 hours of doing weights.

It subisdes within a day or two and is not serious.

[MissJenaKay]

Terribly day today, my eating wasn't awfull, lower in protein than I llike and higher in sugar but right now, I don't care,

Totals
Calories: 1153
Exercise: 323
Net Calories: 830
Fat: 23
Carbs: 159
Fibre: 5
Sugar: 90
Protein: 89
Sodium: 1813

[MissJenaKay]

Didn't manage to update yesterday because I went out with a couple friends at midnight. I also was taken to dinner by my parents, who will never take us anywhere that serves anything even remotely healthy. :c Have had a shitty weekend, so I don't really care about how I ate. I didn't do terribly, but I could have done better on Saturday, Today I just was depressed all day... Bleh Have had about 8 huge arguments in the past two days. Have cried three times, lost two friends because of these arguments, have had the worst self-esteem in a while, haven't enjoyed anything. Gave up on a bunch of things I attempted to start drawing because I just hated how it was turning out. It's just been terrible lately. I really really hope that it's just PMS or something.

Yesterday's Totals (didn't exercise, my day off for the week)
Calories - 1957 (I blame having a milkshake while I was out)
Fat - 53
Carbs - 153
Fibre - 4
Sugar - 58
Protein - 70
Sodium - 606 (Really???)


Today
Calories - 1672
Exercise - 332
Net Calories - 1340
Fat - 28
Carbs - 128
Fibre - 7
Sugar - 58
Protein - 76
Sodium - 865 (really low again... hm c:)

[MissJenaKay]

So I've come to the conclusion that I'm addicted to sugar snap peas. Haha. I made salads with them in it and while I was cooking the turkey sausages that I was making to go with them for my family and I, I ate all the sugar snap peas off everyone's salads. Haha. SO I had to put more on them. xD

[Boss Man]

I am proud of you for talking about the issues you've had in the past few days, but also for not letting them put you off logging your eating.

You managed to stick to a worthwhile process that CAN help you to lose weight and you have that little bit of strength to talk about your issues and not let what happened to you, stop you keeping your log.

That's why I'm proud of you, because these things tell me, that little by little your slow steady weight loss is improving your moods, making you someone that fluctuates less erratically in an emotional sense and someone that is getting a little stronger in some regards.

Yes you had arguments and tears, but you haven't recently come here and shown the same up in the air mood swings you had even 5-6 weeks ago, you're more calm, rational and not one thing then another like you were.

It's great to see, but just the fact you logged today despite the arguments and tears, is a little show of improved character and I want you to recognise that bit of progress within yourself, because it's a small step to an all round healthier you.

Over the past 2-3 weeks, you've bene logging and talking about the exercise and your feelings on things and you REALLY are doing a great job of being consistent with such things and these are things I have always believed you could do; be consistent towards yourself and have plans of attack regards the weight, that are sustainable, healthy and productive.

So WELL DONE for touching base today sweetheart, because it means something positive to me and I hope it means something positive to you too.

You've made me really happy to read this, because in the past such a mix of argument and tears, could have messed with your emotions and seriously train wrecked your eating and exercise and put you back pratically at square one.

Keep pushing and keep believing in yourself, because this IS a little but very positive step towards a better person and all this improved consistency with food, exercise and especially the documenting, is just what you needed and it's slowly starting to get you somewhere.

GOOD JOB Jena and like I said I'm really proud of you.

YOU ROCK!!!!

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks, Boss. I will let you know that I still feel like my emotions are just as erratic as ever, I've just een vocalising it less because I've had a person tell me that I need to stop complaining. Even though that is one of the only ways other than cutting myself that makes it easier for me to handle a situation. I plan on keeping at this, because I don't see how messing up my eating would make me feel any better, the only person I'm hurting when I eat wrong is me, it doesn't bring me any revenge or anything like that so I really don't want to mess it up. I'm trying to figure out how I'mm going to do my eating and working out at school. I'll update with ideas and asking for suggestions tomorrow probably.

Speaking of tomorrow, I'm getting a haircut and I'm thinking that I might do something new, we'll see. C:

Today's totals
Calories - 983 (holy crap low)
Exercise -284
Net calories - 699
Fat - 33
Carbs - 80
Fibre - 6
Sugar - 39
Protein - 84
Sodium - 3621 (really high for having evidently eaten so little...)

I don't really know what happened today. I ate on time, I ate well, I just snacked on sugar snap peas instead of having a breakfast replacement shake at one of my snack times (since I used up all the powder for the breakfast shakes) I didn't realise that it would create so much of a deficit. O_o. I hope I won't end up paying for this later.