Stress just got worse. I have two really difficult midterms to prepare for, 2 hours of sketchbook fieldwork, an 18x24 drawing to finish, a 200face model to make, laundry and dishes to do, cleaning in the apartment, and I only have Saturday and Sunday to do most of it, with two of the works due Tuesday. SO LITTLE TIME. Today is completely filled already, I'm going to be out of my apartment almost all day. Also, preparation for one of the midterms involves re-reading all the articles we've read in class so far to be able to pull quotes from them, reading three new articles, watching a film, going over power points, and rereading notes. I hate this class. Not because of the workload, but because it is highly uninteresting and the professor is almost incompetent. I'm not sure that I've really learned anything other than gazes. Which is not that hard to figure out.
On top of all this, I got rejected yesterday. I'm so sick of even bothering. I already know the answer every time I ask, so I don't know why I bother. I guess I just psych myself into doing it in hopes that I'll be proven wrong. Never again though. It never works out, so I'm not going to bother wasting my energy convincing myself to just try. Ugh. I need more hours in the day! Blahhh.
On a "good" note, I'm not eating terribly, I'm trying to remember to eat, but I'm not sure how good that has been going. Also, I keep forgetting to write down times. I'm not going to even say I'm going to try, because if I do, great, if I don't, I don't feel like I've broken promises. Anyway, I have to go to class now, so I'm off.