Hi Dani~! When times get tough, taking care of yourself is a way of getting "through" it all. That's what I did when I lost my job, and lost my mother in a matter of days...I quit smoking a year before, put MORE extra pounds on - but in 7 months or so by changing my diet and exercising I lost about 45 lbs. I need to lose another 10 lbs, actually I've lost and gained them over and over again
BUT I'm still 40+ lbs less than I was in December 2008. I tell you all this only because the number of lbs you are talking about seems daunting to you I'm sure - it CAN be done! You will feel so much better. This site is a great place to be, lots of support - so hang in there! And yes, drinking lots of water is key....exercising is important, but your food plan is 80 % of whatever results you want to achieve. You don't need to go to a gym, walking and floor exercises, planks, jumping jacks, windmills...walking up and down steps (step ups), hip rotations, so, so many things you can do at your home with very little equipment. I found that what helped me most in my food plan was writing down daily, weekly, monthly options for breakfast, lunch dinner and snacks really helped. If you didn't have the ingredients for Monday's menu, go to Tuesday etc......recently I tried the 17 Day Diet which is a book that does the same thing...tells you what to eat and when. Sometimes we need that...left to our own we make mistakes more often.