You CAN do this, just keep trusting in your head and heart to guide you. I KNOW you're worth this, but you need to feel it 100% like I do. I KNOW you can do that as well and once you feel it, you'll find it all much easier to continue with .
You have a beautiful personality and a great heart. Let them shine and don't be afraid of anything, except losing the will to continue. That alone could be enough to keep you on track.
Thanks for the works of encouragement Bossman. My body feels terrible so I have to get back into a healthy routine, headaches, joint aches, bloat, fatigue....all the stuff associated with a poor diet and sedimentary life style Yuk.