Good to see you back again. I hope this works out for you. Be proud of your intentions and your actions thus far. It's not going to be easy, but with any necessary changes to current regimen and making sure you keep a strong sense of self belief, you CAN achieve your goals.
You can certainly be proud of all your admissions, especially for mentioning the depression because it obviously must have been tough to write about things like that, but it does you credit and I often find through someones heartfelt hard admissions, comes a sense of beauty.
So I don't see you as someone that needs to be pitied or treated delicately, but I see someone that can be positive influence to others, including their children and be a potentially positive figure of change, by succeeding and showing people that your background and past issues, never hindered you from being what you became, when you do and I believe WILL become that sort of rolemodel person who has succeeded.
Whatever support you need when it's possible to give it, we will be here for you. If you have any sensitive issues, or problems with other members or board use, moderators can be here for a private and discreet one to one, because we understand that to succeed physically you must be mentally and emotionally in the right headspace.
So I wish you a lot of luck and thank you for telling us about some difficult things. Your courage and humanity say good things abotu you and I am in no doubt you will be a positive and appreciated part of the community, for as long as you want to be.
Best wishes and take care