DON'T apologise for anything
It's your life and we DO understand
You are looking wondeful at the moment, but then you always do. You are a beautiful, healthy married lady with youthful maturity, so you have nothing to ever reproach yourself for. You can certainly do what you want to goals wise, you just need to keep believing in yourself and keep believing in the choices you are making.
You have the right emotional, mental and physical abiltiy to be doing what you're doing. Calories wise, you will need to be making sure you're not undereating, because your goal has changed, so I would suggest you aim for the 1,800 average for sedentary females and add another 300 on top of that.
You may find in the future you need to increase ccaloris again, to facilitate more mass, so I'd suggest one of two ways.
Assuming you eat 6 times a day, you could icnrease calories by 300 a day, to avoid a large excess caloric to Fat conversion per day.
So you could increase your calories by 5g Protein, 5g Carbs, 1g Fat ,(49 calories), per meal.
The other way is 5g Carbs, 3-4g Fat, (47-56 calories approx), which would be a good option if you thikn your protein intake is satisfactory.
I'd aim for the future to be eating 1.2g per lb of bodyweight in Protein, but I'd advise perhaps to go above that, but try not to exceed 1.5 g per lb, as too much Protein can increase Gout and Kidney Stone risk.
Hopefully that helps.
We will always be here for you and we will always support you misses, so don't apologise for having a life, because I think you're being unfair to yourself to think you have to.
You will always be incredibly valued and appreciated here, because you have always been wonderful, warm and kind-hearted.
You are your own greatest compliment