Hello, all. I guess I will give you an intro on myself. I've been big since I was like 6 and just kept ballooning throughout my years. I once lost a crapload of weight when I used to starve myself and exercise for 3 or more hours after school. My doctor said I was becoming anorexic and told me I needed to start eating. I guess I took too much of his advice to heart and really started to eat. lol!
Then after high school I went through a bunch of drama and hurt that made me depressed. I got even bigger and a few months ago I had the attitude of, "I'm not going anywhere and have no one to impress so why don't I enjoy the one thing that makes me happy (food)." The biggest I've ever been is 254 lbs. Then, I actually tried to eat healthier and dance 4 times a week for 45mins. I did this for about a week and a half and ended up losing 9lbs from that. This was back in March. Then I went through a really terrible "time of the month", I'm female and I had no energy and wanted to eat everything in site. I gave up on my weight loss and really hated myself for several weeks after that.
Something clicked in me about 3 1/2 weeks ago. I'm 23 going on 24 and I have nothing to show for it. I can't get a job here and I have no luck with women when I actually do get out and go to clubs. My friend is in the military and seeing her come back a changed person made me want what she has. Long story short, I came to the decision that I want to go into the Navy next year.
I have been trying my best to eat right and get my exercise in. I feel like I'm actually not eating enough and it scares me that my body will convert the calories I'm getting into fat, therefore not getting me anywhere. I've been diligent about getting cardio, though. I briskly walk 2 miles a day 6 days out of the week and try to incorporate some free weights/push ups into there as well. Here is my journal for the past two days. I'd appreciate any advice on my food and workouts. I am going to see if I have the money to join my local YMCA this weekend.
Unless a different drink is indicated in the journal, I drink water all day. More than 8 glasses sometimes
Tuesday May 31
Honey Nut cheerios w skim milk -(I try my best to read the labels but sometimes I estimate.) 150 calories
beef fajitas chopped up and cooked with egg whites- 200 cals
slice of American cheese - 69 cals
Subway turkey sandwich on wheat w cheese 320 cals
salad w carrots and Italian dressing 120 cals
Protein Shake 300 calories I made it with skim milk, protein powder, and a little bit of Dole pineapple & coconut juice. Full of sugar but I needed some energy for my workout.
Lifted weights. The only thing I know the term for is bicep curls but I did other exercises. I tried to focus on my biceps this day and did this for 15 mins.
Walked 2 miles briskly in about 50 minutes. Too slow, I know.
Salad w carrots and Italian dressing 100 cals
Serving of fajita steak pieces 125 cals
Mashed red potatoes made with some skim milk, nonfat margarine, nonfat cheese 224 cals
Bowl of honey nut cheerios 165 cals
Then later in the night I ate less than a serving of leftover chicken fajita pieces 85 cals
about 2 hrs before bed....
Serving of turkey pepperoni 70 cals
low fat string cheese 60 cals
Instant Oatmeal packet w less than half a serving of protein powder 200 cals
Lowfat yougart cup 80 cals
lowfat string cheese 60 cals
serving of turkey pepperoni 70 cals
glass of Dole pineapple coconut juice 120 cals
2 mile walk in 45 mins. I tried my best to go faster today.
8 pushups. They are hard and to do with so much weight I have.
Fajita chicken pieces mixed with leftover mashed potatoes. I added nonfat cheese too. 380 cals
salad w Italian dressing and carrots 80 cals
steamed broccoli 78 cals
to be continued.....