musculargirl wrote:Know how you feel Jena! Believe me I know. I'm really getting tired of struggling too!! the end result though is definitely worth it! I'm actually heavier than i've ever been too.
It's a miserable feeling. I honestly wish I was like the REST of my family with a high metabolism my dad and brother both wear only size 28 pants and my mom even as she is "fat" (as she calls it) now wears a size 12. My grandparents were all thin until their old age. All my cousins are really thin too, even my eldest cousin who just had two babies in two years. Kinda makes me want to scream. It's highly unfair that I somehow managed to have a terrible metabolism.
Boss Man wrote:It takes time and you've also got to be completely truthful with yourself and ask yourself how much are you doing?
Don't give up okay, because you ARE better than that .
I'm being completely honest when I say I could be exercising more, but I haven't had time as I haven't been able to wake myself up early enough. But I'm eating quite well, I could be eating more and a little cleaner, but I want to be able to actually like eating and such. I don't want to eat just because I need to and think that it tastes terrible. I grew up with two grandmothers that cooked amazing meals, (be it with homemade cream butter and grease galore) and I try my best to cook with a lot of flavour but also with health. It's just really frustrating, especially because I'm not just cooking for myself, I also can't completely control the groceries that come into the house. I can partially control it because I do all the cooking while I'm home so I choose the ingredients for dinner, but I can't control whether my mom buys my favorite snacks and whatnot. I know there's room to improve, but I honestly don't know how much change I can handle at once. Is this whole process supposed to be making changes you can live with? I can't even manage to eat enough yet, how am I supposed to be eating enough and exercising, and eating the right things, and getting up at the right time, and working out as often as I should be, and trying to sort out everything that is already in my life? I'm really thinking that this might not be worth it. I'm pretty much doomed to cancer, diabetes, heart disease, stroke and all that lot because even the HEALTHY members of my family have had these issues. I mean, my grandfather is one of the strongest and healthiest men I know, he's worked a farm his whole life, and this past year, he had a stroke. It scared the hell out of me that someone I saw as being so strong and stubborn and whatnot be reduced to that. For months afterward he didn't sound the same or act the same and he struggled to remember things and I cold tell that he was frustrated, that he knew he was supposed to be able to remember things that he couldn't, that he hated seeing me and not being able to remember my name for a few weeks. It was terrible and it really puts my life into perspective. Is anything really worth it if all it does is cause you stress and misery?