Jena's Journal.

[Nokie173]

12:30 - 2 piece fudge
2:00 - 2 piece fudge

Are those cookies, brownies... If possible fine something healthier with protein b/c your # is a bit low.

[Boss Man]

I'd say that's not the be all and end all though. It's only 2 pieces 2x a day, it's not like someone is eating 8 pieces in a day every day, so it could be worse, but as long as it is limited to 1 or 2 times a week, the impact would be minimal at best.

Though 0x a week on the fudge would be better .

[MissJenaKay]

Are those cookies, brownies... If possible fine something healthier with protein b/c your # is a bit low.

It's a homemade, sugar free, high protein, healthy fat fudge. The ingredients are literally margarine, peanut butter, no calorie sweetener, cream cheese, and protein powder. My protein is low because I haven't had ANY meat in my diet for a good three weeks other than ONE chicken breast that I put into pasta sauce and split between me and two of my roommates. So, at best, in the past three weeks, my natural protein level has come from 1/3 of a chicken breast and a glass of soy milk here and there. I also cannot afford to be drinking protein shakes all the time because soy milk is expensive and I can't stand the taste of whey protein mixed in water.

I'd say that's not the be all and end all though. It's only 2 pieces 2x a day, it's not like someone is eating 8 pieces in a day every day, so it could be worse, but as long as it is limited to 1 or 2 times a week, the impact would be minimal at best.

Though 0x a week on the fudge would be better .

It's 5g protein per serving of fudge. It's a hell of a lot better than me just snacking on crackers or something which is my alternative. Protein rich foods are VERY expensive. I currently have 75 dollars to my name. This 75 dollars has to last until the end of November. I have a 160 student loan interest payment in October and November. Do we see how poorly that works out? I have pretty much NO money. I can't afford to eat, hell, I can't even afford to NOT spend any money until November. I need a job so desperately that I'm losing sleep over it and I'm stressed out. I'm sorry that my eating isn't the greatest, but I'm doing what I can now. It's not like I'm having the kind of fudge that is purely sugar, so leave my fudge alone! Lol.

I'm update again later this evening with totals and my eating for the day. I'm sure I'll get flack over it, but I'm going to explain some things when I write it. (I'm now in a kind of pissy mood and I'm going to an information session for RA positions)

I'll update later with my

[musculArgirl2]

Nokie was just making a suggesting. It's up to you, your the only one that know's your diet, taste and budget.


How did the RA meeting go? I'm suprised you want to do that, I was way to shy to be an RA in college. Maybe your not as shy as you think.

[MissJenaKay]

Nokie was just making a suggesting. It's up to you, your the only one that know's your diet, taste and budget.


How did the RA meeting go? I'm suprised you want to do that, I was way to shy to be an RA in college. Maybe your not as shy as you think.

The RA meeting thing went okay, here at DePaul, you don't have to be outgoing to be an RA, they said that over and over and over last night, that you just need to be helpful and approachable, I've got that down. But in any case, trying for an RA position is basically a backup if I don't get accepted to study abroad. Ideally, studying in Sheffield for a year or in London for a semester is what I would want to do. But I desperately need a job, so even if I have to make myself highly uncomfortable for a year, free housing, a $700 per quarter stipend and $500 meal plan included would be worth it. Besides, I'd likely have my own room, so.... yeah. I'm probably looking into it for all the wrong reasons, but I honestly don't care. Lol. I'm just as shy as I think, I'm just so scared and desperate about next year that I'm considering this.

Hard-boiled eggs are cheap, easy to cook, always available, easy to keep in your bag, high in protein, and very filling for only 60-70 calories.

I would love to do that if egg whites didn't make me gag. :/ Also, I already have all the ingredients for the fudge, I do not have eggs. I also think that they would end up being used since the "random" that got put into our apartment has a bad habit of using other people's things and eating other people's food and leaving messes. If there's a way I can find to stomach hardboiled eggs, then I will, until then, I'm out of luck there. thanks for the suggestion though.


P.S. I'm sorry I seem like such a psychopath lately guys, I just feel horrible. I'm low on sleep, I'm stressed out to the max and when I feel like I'm about to snap, there's nothing worse than telling me that what I'm doing isn't good enough, (or at least making me feel like that's what is being said). So yes, I'm a bit of a bitch lately, and I know it. I apologize for any offense I've caused and any I inevitably will. Also, I realise that I never posted my eating yesterday. I also forgot to save the paper on which at wrote my eating and times. I don't even have my numbers from yesterday because I figured I would input it as I put it up here. So.. yesterday, looks pretty much exactly like Monday, only a little different. I ate less and had no workout. So just scale monday back and there you go. I'll try to make sure I keep tack today.

[musculArgirl2]

It's too bad your so struggling so much with how to afford everything. My sister went to lancaster for a year in college. I believe she said for that year it was cheaper in england than her own college. She went to Gustavus Adolphus a lutheran college here in MN. So hopefully if you go it will be cheaper for you when you go abroad.

Good luck with getting the postion!

[musculArgirl2]

Jena it's okay I feel bad your so stressed out money wise. Have you ever considered work from home jobs. Some are just writing articles, or other things. Some pay pretty decent for at home oppotunities. Others don't. and others are scams but you would be suprised at how many jobs are available online. It might be something to bring some money coming in if you are interested in that.

[MissJenaKay]

Becky :: I believe that at DePaul, study aborad programs mean that you pay for DePaul's tuition and fees and then about an 8k dollar study abroad program fee... I don't know though. I've done quite a bit of research into it, but they never make that clear, so my roommate (Who is actually also interested in studying in England) and I are going to go to the study abroad office next Friday. Don't feel bad for me being stressed out money-wise. I wouldn't be stressed if I hadn't put 500 dollars away for savings for my trip in June. I feel like it might not happen and that really upsets me. There's nothing I want more than to go on that trip. I can't do a work from home thing, I don't think. I need to have set hours to do it, otherwise I won't find time to fit it in, I'll end up using the time to do homework or workout or something along those lines. I'll look into it though.

My commitment to this site has sucked lately. :/ I've been eating pretty much exactly the same, so there's a plus, and I've been trying to workout more often, but it's a struggle with everything I need to get done. Perfect example, last night I was going to workout after my CPR certification class, but I was so tired and I had so much homework to do that I said forget it, grabbed a honey mustard chicken sandwich from the Ray and went home. I've come to the conclusion that I need to learn how to photosynthesize all the nutrients I need. I can't afford groceries any more, so I need to figure out how to get cheaper food (inevitably worse for me) or I need to stop eating.... Ugh. Well, hopefully with this CPR cert I can get a babysitting job more easily. I desperately need a job. Ugh. Sometimes I really wish I had gone against my "better" judgement and just stayed at home and gone to the local community college or something... :c I have yesterday's numbers, just not the times and I'm not going to list a bunch of food without times. Lol. Also, you all will be happy to hear that I am now out of fudge and I don't feel like making it again right away.

Calories - 1467
Fat - 88 (high again)
Carbs - 101
Fibre - 12
Sugar - 29 (all time low I think...)
Protein - 76
Sodium - 2437

I'm thinking of getting a fibre supplement or something to try to kick that up to a better level since it fluctuates a lot...

[Nokie173]

Going to a community college and staying at home was my struggle too. Instead, I left home and went to a University and yes, I budgeted and struggled through them. My first year… I had dorm food.. it was like a cheap buffet of yesterday’s meal. LOL but I was grateful it was “free” (already paid with my tuition) for a whole year. After that I was on my own… Rent, bills, and I got involved in this plastic thing called credit card. LOL. What I did regret was that I depended on fast food, white rice, and ramen!!

Affordable things you can keep in mind… Wheat bread, eggs, frozen veggies, beans, I sometimes have cans of tuna and chicken. Those are something you can keep for awhile and stored them somewhere.

If you stress too much, just take a breath and take it slowly…
Stress can cause weight gain and mess with our hormones… people tend to get depress and overeat when they are stress and other stuff… so take it easy my dear. I know it’s a struggle but you have to take it one by one.

[MissJenaKay]

Food here, even dorm food is very expensive, you have a meal plan that goes by prices of the food you buy at the student center, things like a cup of cereal or a little package of edamame at the student center are around 4 dollars a pieace. I did that last year for my food and got so sick of the selection I could have killed someone. This year, I don't have rent since it's paid as a part of my cost of attendance (10k a year for living in this apartment with 3 other girls) but I don't have to buy groceries, which are soo freaking expensive that it kills me inside. I don't have a credit card, nor do I want one, so I have no worries there. Lol.

I do buy wheat bread, I could buy eggs if I actually had money. Frozen vegetables are something I would do, but can't eat just those for a meal, so I would need something to go with it (which is expensive). Tuna is too high in mercury to have very often. Canned chicken??? Never heard of it. My only problem is that I don't really like eating anyway, so if I have to eat the same thing over and over and over, it makes me want to eat even less.

I'm a natural worrier. I get stressed out over EVERYTHING. I can't help it, it just happens. And I try to take things one at a time, but I feel like if I don't at least try to work a little on everything, some things get so far out of hand and behind that it stresses me out even more. I under eat when I'm depressed. I sit around, spending all my time alone and just thinking. I don't do a whole lot of anything when I'm depressed. I don't eat, I don't sleep, I don't do anything...

[Boss Man]

Cheap foods.

Eggs

Baked Beans.

Large biscuit cereal in the big boxes. Better than flake, bran, muesli or small biscuit type cereals as it's easier to monitor consumption levels. You get the same consumption rate per day guaranteed. Plus the larger the box the more cost effective it is.

Bread.

Turkey or Ham in a packet.

Bargain bin items

Food priced down on the use by date.

2 for 1.

3 for 2.

Discounted sale items, or red sticker items, blue sticker items, managers specials.

[MissJenaKay]

Cheap foods.

Eggs I don't really like eggs unless I'm baking with them.

Baked Beans. Not as cheap as you think since my grocery store only sells brand name things

Large biscuit cereal in the big boxes. Better than flake, bran, muesli or small biscuit type cereals as it's easier to monitor consumption levels. You get the same consumption rate per day guaranteed. Plus the larger the box the more cost effective it is. I don't eat cereal, I eat yogurt.

Bread. got it

Turkey or Ham in a packet. 4 dollars a packet . . . . not cheap.

Bargain bin items Don't have those.

Food priced down on the use by date. Don't have those either

2 for 1.

3 for 2. I grab these deals when I can.

Discounted sale items, or red sticker items, blue sticker items, managers specials.I get sales the best I can.

[MissJenaKay]

Stress just got worse. I have two really difficult midterms to prepare for, 2 hours of sketchbook fieldwork, an 18x24 drawing to finish, a 200face model to make, laundry and dishes to do, cleaning in the apartment, and I only have Saturday and Sunday to do most of it, with two of the works due Tuesday. SO LITTLE TIME. Today is completely filled already, I'm going to be out of my apartment almost all day. Also, preparation for one of the midterms involves re-reading all the articles we've read in class so far to be able to pull quotes from them, reading three new articles, watching a film, going over power points, and rereading notes. I hate this class. Not because of the workload, but because it is highly uninteresting and the professor is almost incompetent. I'm not sure that I've really learned anything other than gazes. Which is not that hard to figure out.

On top of all this, I got rejected yesterday. I'm so sick of even bothering. I already know the answer every time I ask, so I don't know why I bother. I guess I just psych myself into doing it in hopes that I'll be proven wrong. Never again though. It never works out, so I'm not going to bother wasting my energy convincing myself to just try. Ugh. I need more hours in the day! Blahhh.

On a "good" note, I'm not eating terribly, I'm trying to remember to eat, but I'm not sure how good that has been going. Also, I keep forgetting to write down times. I'm not going to even say I'm going to try, because if I do, great, if I don't, I don't feel like I've broken promises. Anyway, I have to go to class now, so I'm off.

[Boss Man]

Rejected in what way?

[MissJenaKay]

Decided (against my better judgement) to ask a guy out for coffee or lunch sometime.

When it rains it pours, I've currently got 42 dollars and change that I can spend until the end of the quarter or I have to start using my savings. FML.