Jena's Journal.

[musculArgirl2]

HOpe you have fun at your class Jena. Nice that you have someone to go with. Makes it so much easier i think. Good Luck!

[MissJenaKay]

HOpe you have fun at your class Jena. Nice that you have someone to go with. Makes it so much easier i think. Good Luck!

Thanks, Becky! Class went okay. I think I'm going to die, butt I went with a few friends. (Found three more of our girlfriends on the way to the gym so we all did the class). I wasn't the only one that was super whipped. Hwoever, I modified some of the moves, like avoiding the half balll balancing. We're thinking of making it a Monday thing. I don't know how I like that though because it KILLED me. Oh wells. Anyway, I' off to bed now so here are my daily totals.

Calories - 1642
Exercise - 574
Net Calories - 1068
Fat - 44
Carbs - 250 high today
Fibre - 21
Sugar - 108 high as well
Protein - 51 loooww
Sodium - 2161

[Boss Man]

Good idea. You've got something concrete in the schedule and other people to be accountable too if you don't go.

This will help you to get some regularity into your schedule and be a good source of support, plus you proved it was workable in conjunction with your other needs, so it wasn't going to conflict or reduce abiltiy to do additional study or anything like that.

Definitely do this Jena, because it will be a great idea and it proves you've found people who are happy to be part of something you're doing, which definitely says something about you as a person, regards what others think of you .

[MissJenaKay]

Good idea. You've got something concrete in the schedule and other people to be accountable too if you don't go.

If it makes me feel like I do today, I'm not sure I want to go anymore. Lol. I might go to a 30min Reshape class with Jenna tomorrow evening, but that depends on how my legs feel, like, today I can't walk up or down stairs, I can't straighten my legs and I can't raise my arms above shoulder level. It's EXTREMELY painful.

This will help you to get some regularity into your schedule and be a good source of support, plus you proved it was workable in conjunction with your other needs, so it wasn't going to conflict or reduce abiltiy to do additional study or anything like that.

Right now since it's the beginning of the quarter, I don't have any time intensive homework... Soooo, yeah, we'll see how it pans out as the year goes on.

Definitely do this Jena, because it will be a great idea and it proves you've found people who are happy to be part of something you're doing, which definitely says something about you as a person, regards what others think of you .

Well, these girls have hearts of gold and I love them to death, so I'd certainly hope that they at least care for me a little back. Thanks for the hint and not the outright compliment, Boss, I appreciate that a lot. Lol.

In any case, today was kinda sucky, I woke up late so I didn't go to the gym this morning (actually even if I woke up on time, I don't know if I'd go since I can't walk stairs... SO PAINFUL) I ate okay, but not very well. I also need to get more protein into my diet and more fibre as well, my sugar levels are way too high, besides, fibre would make me fuller and it's just better in general. I also need to find a scale to check my weight, but I don't want to check my weight while I'm at the gym with my girls. In any case, I'm exhausted, so I'm going to brush my teeth then sleep.

Today's Totals

Calories - 1221
Fat - 40
Carbs - 170
Fibre - 13
Sugar - 70
Protein - 47
Sodium - 1242

[MissJenaKay]

Okay, so my legs hurt even more this morning than they did yesterday. I also have a lot of tightness in my back, neck and shoulders as well. :c I hope it's gone by tonight. I really want to go work out tonight with Jenna. If my legs feel better by then, then I will go workout, if not, I might still go to the gym but only do some light cardio instead of doing the class. We'll see how I feel then. Also, I did my nails last night and this makes me happy. Haha. I have a bit of a nail polish obsession. xD Oh well, and with that little update, I need to go do my hair and get dressed and ready for class.

[Boss Man]

The way your body feels is understandable, because it was worked hard in that class, but over time the body should adapt and not feel so intense the next day.

You're probably feeling a certain amount of DOMS and also perhaps a little stiffness, but hopefully with time, such sesnations will subside more and you'll feel them less.

Don't let these things put you off. I know these physical sensations might feel a bit grotesque at the moment, but perserverence and a modicum of mental strength, will overcome these things, so you don't let what you feel put you off yeah .

You did a good thing, managing to do the class and you CAN continue to be proactive and capitalise on the weight loss you have so far achieved.

Chin up and keep believing Jena, you're doing great okay .

[MissJenaKay]

Boss, it's not just soreness, itms weakness as well. I can't walk down stairs without feeling as though my knees are going to buckle and give out. I'm even more sore today than I was yesterday. This is absolutely miserable. I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow. I'll probably skip leg work because my legs feel so screwed up but I'l try to do arm work and maybe some jogging or biking or something. We'll see. I'll put today's totals up tomorrow morning since I am in bed right now and too lazy to do it. Hahaha.

[MissJenaKay]

Okay, first off I'm going to pout at the fact that I woke up late and couldn't make it to the gym. I woke up at 8, and I have to be on a train to class by eleven. So I'd be cutting it WAY too close if I were to go to the gym. I'm going to go tonight though, I think. I also don't think I'm going to straighten my hair today since I'm going to go to the gym tonight, which means another shower and I don't want to straighten my hair two days in a row. I'll decide that later. Speaking of hair, does anyone know of any supplements or hair products I can use to keep it from getting damaged from the flatiron? I mean, I already use three different heat protectant products, but it's still making my hair get split ends much more quickly which is making me sad. Also, my legs are still killing me from Monday it's starting to get really concerning since the pain has only eased VERY slightly and I also have pain in my neck and shoulders and back now. :/ In any case.

Yesterday's Totals
Calories - 1208
Fat - 32
Carbs - 188
Fibre - 9
Sugar - 86
Protein - 45
Sodium - 1815

I've decided that I'm going to go to the gym right after class today. I'll get home from class about 2 and I'll go to the gym, then I have a meeting from 6-7 and I'm going to my friend Michelle's place for dinner tonight, I believe. c:

I definitely need to work on lowering sugar, raising fibre, getting more protein, and eating more in general.

I think I'll post what I'm eating today as a guide for what I generally eat in a day and then I'll look into things that I can replace with that will help to even out my levels and raise my calories some. c:

[Boss Man]

Good job on doing the workout later instead of not at all.

As for supplements for hair, some supplements have positive effects on hair like Omega supplements or CLA might as well, but in general perhaps use a different shampoo, or maybe some kind of serum. I think you can get such products that help protect you from heat damage whilst you use something like straighteners.

Otherwise it could be the straighteners might need changing, or perhaps it's a setting issue, or simply leaving them to heat up for too long.

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks for the suggestions Boss, I've been looking into a new flatiron for a while, one that will be better for my hair, but I don't have 200-300 dollars to just spend on a new flatiron. In any case, I went to the gym today and I found the scale and weighed myself and after a tiny bit of estimation and math to subtract the weight of my clothes, I'm down 3 more pounds! c: This brings my running weightloss total to 12lbs! c: Yay! That means that I must be doing something right c:

In other news, I said that I would track what I ate today as a guide to see where I could do better.

8:00 wake up
9:00 AM - 4 oz Light Peach Yogurt
10:30 - 4 oz vanilla soy milk and a small handful of almonds
11:30 - 1/2 a chicken sandwich and 1/3 a grande caramel frappucino (I had to throw the rest away because my class is in a computer lab. :c :c I love fraps...)
1:30 - Special K Bar
2:30 - Burrito (tortilla, rice, pork, black beans, corn, onion, sauteed onion and pepper)
3:00 - Workout
- 2 sets 12 chest press at 50lbs
- 2 sets 12 rows at 50lbs
- 2 sets 12 back extension at 80lbs
- 42 minutes of stationary biking
4:10 - Protein shake
7:30 - 2 hot dogs
11:00 - poptart

I actually ate a lot more today than I usually do... Hmm... In any case...

Today's Totals

Calories - 1816
Exercise - 416
Net Calories - 1400 (haha, that worked out perfectly. xD)
Fat - 74 High again today
Carbs - 178
Fibre - 9
Sugar - 84
Protein - 70
Sodium - 2304

Anywho. I have class in the morning, then I'm off to my friend Andrea's for the night tomorrow so I need some sleep. c:

[musculArgirl2]

Congrats on the weight loss Jena! Yay!!!!!

[Boss Man]

Keep up the hard work and don't stop believing.

You CAN do this .

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks Becky and Boss.

I've been really busy this past weekend, I went out to my friend Andrea's house outside the city for a night and all kinds of stuff has been going on. Yesterday, as I had hoped, Jenna, Sarah and I went to the fitness class again. I feel like I didn't put as much effort into it this time because I was so afraid of getting the crippling muscle soreness that I got last time. I'm both glad and disappointed at that. I'm hoping to get into more of a schedule with my workouts too since I've been pretty sporadic. I also didn't eat very well this weekend including cupcakes (3 over the weekend), pizza (twice) and homemade Chinese food... not good by any means but it was delicious. xD In any case, I've come to really dislike my drawing class because I really hate what she is having us practice, the techniques we are using and the assignments. "Large" assignment number one? Draw a root.... Really?? what the hell. A root?? I have to go outside, pull up some poor plant and draw its roots..... I am beyond annoyed, I really don't see how these types of assignments are beneficial to me at all. :/ But I have to do them. Also, I have a new-found and morbid hatred of charcoal. Oh god that stuff is terrible. I CANNOT stand dirty hands and charcoal not only gets my hands dirty, it gets EVERYTHING dirty. Anyway, I'm done raging about my drawing class now.

In other news, I met with Fowzia for the last time on Saturday and she gave me a list of references, I don't know if I want to even pursue any of the referrals. Mainly because I feel like therapy, any more, is just a waste of my time and money. Namely because I don't trust therapists enough to actually be fully honest about things. Oh well, I figure something out eventually. If I feel like I need help, I'll look into the referrals, however, right now, I don't want to be bothered with it.

In any case, I have a few days of tracking to update you guys on. c:

Friday

Calories - 1230
Fat - 18
Carbs - 210
Fibre - 17
Sugar - 123 (wow high)
Protein - 41
Sodium - 725

Saturday (Didn't track, was the day I was at Andrea's in the morning and then on a train in the afternoon, then a meeting with Fowzia and so... yeah)

Sunday (Ate terribly)

Calories - 2145
Exercise - 189
Net Calories - 1956
Fat - 88
Carbs - 250
Fibre - 13
Sugar - 83
Protein - 76
Sodium - 3193

Monday

Calories - 1775
Exercise - 503
Net Calories - 1272
Fat - 37
Carbs - 306
Fibre - 19
Sugar - 111
Protein - 43
Sodium - 3010

I didn't eat terribly yesterday, but I definitely should have eaten better, I'm really hoping today I will eat well, I'm off to a good start with a glass of soy milk, a clementine and 4oz of yogurt for breakfast. I also need to get back to greek yogurt, normal yogurt has seen my protein values drop quite a bit.

[Boss Man]

Just a thought, but if you don't trust these people enough to be honest with them, as you imply, how do you know you're wasting your time going in the first place?

Being more candid, if you were not being totally candid from the getgo, might yield more productive and enlightening feelings about what you were going through, and teach you more .

[MissJenaKay]

Hey guys, it's been a little while since I've been on here, I partially blame school work. The past few days haven't been bad, however, I have been undereating, I haven't worked out in a couple days (though I AM going after class today), I've been oversleeping and my depression has been nagging at me and I ended up getting into somewhat of an argument with a friend yesterday over my depression and stuff, so... meh. Anyway, I HAVE been tracking, I just haven't been posting. Thought I'd let you guys know.

Just a thought, but if you don't trust these people enough to be honest with them, as you imply, how do you know you're wasting your time going in the first place?

Being more candid, if you were not being totally candid from the get go, might yield more productive and enlightening feelings about what you were going through, and teach you more .

I know I'm wasting my time because I just CANNOT talk to people face to face about what's happening with me and be honest about it. It's too scary for me and so I tend to withhold information, which I know if I'm not completely honest, therapy does no good. So I don't think I'm going to bother looking into the references that Fowzia gave me. I just can't be candid with people without knowing them for a long while. It's the way I was raised and it also makes me feel safer. Oh well.