Jena's Journal.

[musculArgirl2]

I've gained weight on my med too unforuntately. But i still don't regret going on it at all even with the crappy side effects. It's been a life safer for me. I'm not bipolar though. I have another health issue. I forget to take my med too. That's why i have a pill box. I still forget to take it sometimes even then.

Wish you the best Jena. Keep the faith it will work out. I've been very very down before i know how you feel. I think a lot of people know how you feel. Keep the faith. (for me with keep the faith i mean faith in God which has helped me in my down times if you believe or even just faith in a better life if your not in to religion. A better life is out there! )

[Boss Man]

By shiny, I meant you have the ability to shine.

By "human capabilities", I mean the qualities you possess inside. What your head and heart are able to allow you to do as a person .

[MissJenaKay]

Quick update:

I'm alive (barely) I'm so stressed out and eating terribly and not working out like I should, but I've only gained 2 pounds in the past month. I really need to get my life on track, but I'm struggling to find the time and the funds. I'm so stressed out... :c I've also been having a really sore back pretty often. :c Blegh.

[musculArgirl2]

You've been doing so good Jena. We both can't let stuff interfere with our goals!!!

Hope you feel better.

[Nokie173]

You can try to stretch you lower back and you can use Bengay cream?

[Boss Man]

Keep believing and keep trying to find any positives you can.

We are here for you sweetheart.

GOOD LUCK.

[MissJenaKay]

I've figured out that I get my back pain whenever I lie on my back of extended periods, like if I doze off while lying on my back or something like that. I'm going to go to the gym a little later (like in an hour) and I'm going to weigh myself, hopefully there has been no more gain with all the stress lately.

[MissJenaKay]

Hey all went to the gym and whatnot tonight. I'm back up to 239. Which means I'm back to only an 11 pound loss. But that's still one pound less than when I first got back to school! Yay bright side. Also, next quarter is looking like it will be much better for workouts since my schedule is much much more open. I'm looking for a winter break job back home so I can save up and go to Europe, but that isn't looking so great right now. :/ We'll see what happens though.

[musculArgirl2]

Hey all went to the gym and whatnot tonight. I'm back up to 239. Which means I'm back to only an 11 pound loss. But that's still one pound less than when I first got back to school! Yay bright side. Also, next quarter is looking like it will be much better for workouts since my schedule is much much more open. I'm looking for a winter break job back home so I can save up and go to Europe, but that isn't looking so great right now. :/ We'll see what happens though.

Wish you luck on the winter break job! That's not like you to look at the positive side of things. 11 is still great!

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks, Becky! I'm just in such a good mood to go home and I'm just very thankful my gain hasn't been worse with how badly I've been eating and how little time I've been able to commit to workouts.

[Boss Man]

Keep believing in yourself, because you ARE worth it .

[MissJenaKay]

Turned nineteen today. Was lovely. But mleh in a pretty down mood now...

[fitoverforty]

Happy birthday Jena

[musculArgirl2]

happy birthday!

[Boss Man]

I'm wishing you the best year of your life. I think this might be possile in light of your past, but I want you to know I AM SO PROUD OF YOU for not giving up on yourself, I really am.

I'm sending you a BIG HUG and lot of WARM WISHES. When you you let yourself be you can be an absolute sweetheart and a really lovely young Lady, so have a great year, well as great it can be and keep believing in yourself .

I won't stop believing in you unless you stop believing in me and you have earned every kind word you have gotten off me, because you have merited them. I know you can be so much more of a person, if you continue to have just a small ounce of belief in that and a bit of trust in people like me, that just want the best for you and want you to be happy, healthy and feel something close to hat you might deem "normal".

GOOD LUCK Jena and please keep letting us know how you are getting on, because you have a right to be happy and live well and as a community, we ARE committed to helping you find more of the wellness and happiness you deserve.

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