Nokie's Food Journal

[musculArgirl2]

[quote="Nokie173"]

01.17.12
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Okay your right they are cuties!

Scary! I didn't know migranes could get that bad. Glad your feeling better!!!!!

[Boss Man]

You would know if you had a stroke, as you could use the FAST principle on someone, or they on you.

Face: Is the face falling or drooping on one side?

Arms: Can someone fully raise both Arms?

Speech: Is the speech becoming slurred?

Time: Time to act.

Strokes come in two forms, a Cerebrovascular Heamorhhage, (burst blood vessel on the Brain), or a Cerebrovascular Infarction, (Ischemic stroke, (a blockage in the brain, often caused by an Embolism, a detached bloodclot that came from elsewhere and lodged in the Brain)).

[Nokie173]

You would know if you had a stroke, as you could use the FAST principle on someone, or they on you.

Face: Is the face falling or drooping on one side?

Arms: Can someone fully raise both Arms?

Speech: Is the speech becoming slurred?

Time: Time to act.

Strokes come in two forms, a Cerebrovascular Heamorhhage, (burst blood vessel on the Brain), or a Cerebrovascular Infarction, (Ischemic stroke, (a blockage in the brain, often caused by an Embolism, a detached bloodclot that came from elsewhere and lodged in the Brain)).

Thank you... good to know.

01.19.20
7:30AM – Coffee, oatmeal
9:30AM – Wheat bread x1, turkey deli, low fat cheese, orange
12:00PM – Thai noodles (Pad-Sa-Ew Chicken) ½, orange
2:30PM – Meal replacement
6:00PM – Scramble eggs & spinach
8:00PM – Weights (45mins)/ Kick Boxing (25mins)
9:30PM – Protein shake

I have really big calves and it’s not even funny! Since its been very cold lately, I kind of want boots. OMG, it’s just soooo hard to find one that can pull/zip up pass my calves. This heavy set lady, sat next to me trying some on and BAM fits her perfectly!!! WTF? I know I have some muscles there but I also have some fat!! It’s not that I don’t like big calves but its crazy big… it’s pretty frustrating because I don’t wear short skirts or shorts because of it. When I do wear skirts, it’s a long one! I guess, I have to continue to do cardio and a bunch of squats and lunges!!!

[musculArgirl2]

I have really big calves and it’s not even funny! Since its been very cold lately, I kind of want boots. OMG, it’s just soooo hard to find one that can pull/zip up pass my calves. This heavy set lady, sat next to me trying some on and BAM fits her perfectly!!! WTF? I know I have some muscles there but I also have some fat!! It’s not that I don’t like big calves but its crazy big… it’s pretty frustrating because I don’t wear short skirts or shorts because of it. When I do wear skirts, it’s a long one! I guess, I have to continue to do cardio and a bunch of squats and lunges!!!

I've felt your pain Nokie. I have big calves too. I think besides losing some fat on them not much more you can do though. Mine are awful especially now that i've gained so much weight.

Personally though as long as i can get thinner, and feel hopefully as toned as my hopefully nonexistant stretched skin will be and lose some (a lot) of fat i don't really care anymore that i have big calfs etc. But i do know how you feel.

[fitoverforty]

I have really big calves and it’s not even funny! Since its been very cold lately, I kind of want boots. OMG, it’s just soooo hard to find one that can pull/zip up pass my calves.

Girl, I know what you are talking about! I can't even wear some of the jeans that are boot cut because I can't get my calves in them! I have huge calves, always have. They are muscular but I'm sure there is some fat also hanging on there too.
I have noticed that some shoe stores are starting to have boots that have an elastic spacer at the top of the boot to allow more room. That's the kind I finally found that I can get on - barely, but I can.

[Boss Man]

Nothing wrong with a full Calf. If it helps add a little more protection and stability to the lower leg in regards to connective tissues and bones, it's a good thing.

[Nokie173]

I’m not saying it’s really bad but just frustrating because it prevents me from wearing things. Yes, I know it’s materialistic of me wanting to dress like some people who can wear anything they want. People often tell me to appreciate my body more and wear what fits not make things fit. (Don’t get me wrong... I don’t wear tight clothes were my muffin top or butt crack shows, I see a lot of people and it's not so pretty ) I guess, being healthy and have supportive bones is a good thing.

01.20.12
6:30AM – Coffee, bread x1
9:30AM – Wheat bagel, peanut butter
12:00PM – Chicken, brown rice, soup 1/2
2:30PM – Chicken, brown rice, salad 1/2
6:00PM – Steam fish, steam veggies, side - light soy sauce
9:00PM – Kick Boxing (45mins)/Zumba abs (15mins) – Proteins hake

[Nokie173]

01.21.12
8:30AM – Coffee, wheat bread x2, eggs, turkey and cheese sandwich
10:00AM – Coffee, orange
12:00PM – Beef, brown rice, green tea
2:30PM – Turkey deli and lettuce
5:00PM – Meal replacement shake
7:30PM – Steam fish & string beans
10PM – Workout (Maybe – If I get home)

My meals are timely today because I’m working. Depending what time I get home, I’ll try to fit it in. I should have got up earlier today and work out in the morning but for some darn reason, I was tired… maybe things are finally getting to me or maybe I got up the wrong side of the bed. But right now, I’m so pissed off I really want to kick the wall or throw something out the window or scream out loud until I can’t scream anymore or bang my head on the table! I just want to burst out in tears because I’m tired just so damn tired. Everything is just so fucked up… family, wedding, work, finance, and health... or maybe I’m a bit emotional… but times like this… I just want to drink myself to death! I hate how I try to do something good but end up back firing. I hate how I speak up but get slap for saying something. I hate how I have to take so much reasonability for everything and when it goes wrong, fingers are pointed at me. I hate the fact that I’m being blamed that our family breaking apart. I just really hate that whatever I do and whatever I say is wrong. I hate how people think it’s their damn wedding and demand it should be a certain way. I hate the fact that people take their anger out on me because I’m the youngest and I’m a female. I hate that I’m fat no matter how hard I try I’m still the same. I hate the way I look and don’t even want to look in the mirror… I hate myself for being so damn negative right now.

[musculArgirl2]

01.21.12
8:30AM – Coffee, wheat bread x2, eggs, turkey and cheese sandwich
10:00AM – Coffee, orange
12:00PM – Beef, brown rice, green tea
2:30PM – Turkey deli and lettuce
5:00PM – Meal replacement shake
7:30PM – Steam fish & string beans
10PM – Workout (Maybe – If I get home)

My meals are timely today because I’m working. Depending what time I get home, I’ll try to fit it in. I should have got up earlier today and work out in the morning but for some darn reason, I was tired… maybe things are finally getting to me or maybe I got up the wrong side of the bed. But right now, I’m so pissed off I really want to kick the wall or throw something out the window or scream out loud until I can’t scream anymore or bang my head on the table! I just want to burst out in tears because I’m tired just so damn tired. Everything is just so fucked up… family, wedding, work, finance, and health... or maybe I’m a bit emotional… but times like this… I just want to drink myself to death! I hate how I try to do something good but end up back firing. I hate how I speak up but get slap for saying something. I hate how I have to take so much reasonability for everything and when it goes wrong, fingers are pointed at me. I hate the fact that I’m being blamed that our family breaking apart. I just really hate that whatever I do and whatever I say is wrong. I hate how people think it’s their damn wedding and demand it should be a certain way. I hate the fact that people take their anger out on me because I’m the youngest and I’m a female. I hate that I’m fat no matter how hard I try I’m still the same. I hate the way I look and don’t even want to look in the mirror… I hate myself for being so damn negative right now.

Hey nokie i'm not the best at giving advice so bare with me. I'm sorry things are the way they are right now for you. By the way your not fat!! You have a little weight you could lose but nothing in the category of fat! I don't know exactly what is going on but i can imagine you do have a lot on your plate. The wedding, work and families can always be stressful. to be honest, I really admire you. You work so hard, your engaged to be married, you have a nice career, you live in a beautiful city, and did i say you are getting married and are going to have a beautiful wedding!!! I know things can suck sometimes and don't worry about venting, i do it all them time. LOL Maybe think about what changes you could make in your life that would change some of the things that are bothering you?? If you could escape woudl you really want too or is it just a bad day?? Either way, i hope you feel better. I"m glad you let us know too. Hugs!!! Hope you feel better!!!!

[Boss Man]

1. You are a very beautiful person.

2. You CAN and WILL lose the weight.

3. It's your wedding, so tell other people to politely back off and if they can't then forget about coming.

4. People criticising you can get bent. Tell them to look at their own behaviour and to take a more rounded view before singling you out.

You have the right to take control of such situations and rationally state your case and if you do that more than it seems you might do, you might possibily get somewhere .

This is your life and not for anyone else to dictate and if people can't see that then they need to be told to have any chance of making things better for you.

You're doing a lot of things right and trying to make your life better and you deserve to be proud of yourself for that, so you keep pushing and keep believing in yourself, becasue you are a wonderful human being and deserve to feel that way about yourself .

[Nokie173]

Thanks for being positive while I was a bit negative – actually extremely negative! I think I just lacked sleep and was overly stress. Everything is just hitting me all at once and I don’t have the strength or mind set to overcome it. I will try to sleep more because I need energy to tackle tough times… such as this. Again, thanks for letting me vent and being so positive!

01.23.12
6:30AM – Coffee, oatmeal
9:30AM – Wheat bagel, ham, eggs
12:00PM – Kick Boxing (45mins) – protein shake
1:30PM – Pork sandwich
4:00PM – Meal replacement
6:30PM – Steam fish & veggie
8:30PM – Weights (45mins) – Protein shake

[Nokie173]

01.24.12
6:30AM – Coffee, wheat bread, turkey deli
9:30AM – Lettuce wrap with low fat cheese, turkey deli, orange
12:00PM – Chicken noodle soup, apple
2:30PM – Meal replacement shake
6:00PM – Grilled chicken and lettuce
8:00PM – Zumba – 45mins – protein shake

I just noticed I didn’t take a picture this month!!! I think I’ll just do it next month!

[Boss Man]

Again, thanks for letting me vent and being so positive!

That's okay, that's what this site and we are here for.

When you don't feel right we don't feel quite right, because one of our own is hurting or feeling dysfunctional and if we said get a grip you moaning minnie or something equally rough, we wouldn't be doing very well I don't think.

If things are getting a bit too much sometimes, don't hesitate to PM me if you need to. You've been a great contributor to this site for a long time now and this site would never be the same without you I'm sure of that and we all want you to feel special, loved and happy, I'm sure of that too, because you are a bit special in the way(s), in which you converse with others and when you get married, hopefully you will have many great memories to look back on, with someone who will hopefully never forget the true value of marriage and the person he will be married to.

Just keep on keeping on and don't be afraid to be more human sometimes and show some frailty occasionally if you need to, because it would be understandable, no matter how strong or bullish you might normally feel as a person, you're only human and sometimes things can be a bit overwhelming, in situations where stress, pressure and other people, seem to be coming from all sides and you're in the middle fieldling the curve balls and shielding yourself from the near constant barrage.

So I totally understand that things must be somewhat up and down right now and when people like you need it most, we try to be there for those that are there for us, how ever often that might be.

You're a great person Nokie and a great light in many peoples lives, so keep on shining and being beautiful, because your intended to be is one seriously lucky guy, to have someone like you to marry and I hope he never forgets it, because a good strong marriage is worth more than anything money can buy and you are DEFINITELY worth it .

[feelin-great]

Hey Nokie, I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time Sometimes we hold things in and then we just need to vent, so vent away, we are here for you!

I know how you feel, I have been there before. It feels like everything and everyone is against you and you just need to scream - but in the middle of it all you have to take a deep breath and remember the good things you have. You are a beautiful woman, inside AND out - don't ever forget that! You may have a few pounds you want to lose, but you are by no means fat! And be proud of the fact that you are doing something about it instead of letting it get out of hand - it will happen with all of your hard work and determination! And as stressful as your wedding planning is, remember that you have a fiance who loves you and you will be with when it is all over

And also don't forget that we are here for you so you can always get things off your chest on here. Sometimes just getting it out there can relieve a lot of the stress instead of holding it all inside to build up. You are such a wonderful person and have been so supportive on this site and I am very grateful for that **HUGS**

[Nokie173]

Thank you everybody!!! You guys/gals always make me feel calm and better in some way after expressing/ venting. I’m reading this at work and trying to hold back tears because times like this I’m glad I have a place to run to for support. This place not only help physically but also emotionally… and that I am very bless & thankful for...

01.25.12
6:30AM – Coffee, oatmeal
10:00AM – Wheat breakfast burrito
12:00PM – Weights – protein shake
1:30PM – Rice, chicken, curry, salad (Eating half)
3:30PM – Rice, chicken, curry, salad (Finishing half)
6:00PM – Grilled fish, steam green beans
8:00PM – Kick boxing (45mins) – protein shake

I didn’t want to go to gym today but my friend at work told me to go! No excuses because she doesn’t want to hear it. LOL… So, at last min I went. I didn’t want to go because I was full of anger with work stuff and wasn’t in the mood. I know getting out of the office would be good but I was just too caught up with drama … Thank goodness I went! Man, I lifted those barbells with all my strengths… Not only do I feel good after but I’m too darn tired to get all fire up about useless shit. I’m relief! Life is too short… I gotta take it easy with my stress level or else I have to go back to the emergency room…