Fat Around Button Area?

[Martin-Boy2]

Spose the right thing to do is to forget about her right? Seems the reasonable answer but not the one i was hoping for, returned the film i didn't watch just a while ago she was there and it just seemed akward, she seemed kinda shy and that was that. She also looked better today as she had done her hair.

[MissJenaKay]

Darling, I think it would be best for you to try to move on. Don't know what else to say on the issue. I know how much it sucks, but you just gotta do it. I hope the best for you, dear.

[Martin-Boy2]

Hi Brent was looking forward to your response.

What makes you think she's interested though? Tonight was almost as though we didn't speak yesterday, but that might of just been because of what was said, i dunno.

I thought it was too quick myself, asking for her number after just talking to her for a few minutes, and that was a downfall i feel on part, i guess i rushed into it, possibly because of how long it take and thinking that i wouldn't get the chance again, so i stormed in, and kinda put her on the spot. With your idea - i do have mates, but it's complicated, i have a couple that i sometimes go out drinking with, and very vague stuff, and some that i haven't seen for litreally 6 months - it's real weird. So that kinda plan wouldn't work in a way lol. Telling her to bring the bf is a good idea, i like what you did there, shows that your not after just pulling her, which is what it may of seemed, and that's why im annoyed it came off like that, but nothings dead in the water yet, i can still talk to her, only id have to go to the store to do so, and when is the question, every day is a bit dramatic.

I can still get to know her, i think the problem today is i didn't really know what to say, and she herself seemed shy and didn't say much, so i didn't really make an attempt, but maybe in not tomorrow but the next day i should pop down and see her, just don't want to come across as stalking her or giving off wrong signals ya know? Could ask her a bit about her bf, but seems a bit, i dunno, intruding of space, although she'd prob talk about it, i dunno, it's really weird at the moment, and the more i hear from you guys helps me in knowing what to do next - although i understand she says she's not avaliable, at least not now, and i can respect that and have to face that truth.

[Boss Man]

A rebuttle is the same thing as being rebuffed. She baulked you, stonewalled your affections, call it what you will, but that was the gist of that one potential outcome I identified.

You could go private for your treatment, if you considered exploring the possilibity of a plan.

Monthly payments that would supplement a system designed to help people get faster treatment if they need it.

Your recurrent problems shouldn't be a barrier, because you're not someone that has a chronic issue related to substance addiction(s) of any kind; it's musculoskeletal, so I can't see that being a hinderance to getting any treatment.

The kind of treatment you might need now, could cost literally 1,000's if you went private, so a plan might be an option, if you could scrape together enough to pay it every month, but you'd really need direct debit first to have automated payment.

[Martin-Boy2]

@Brent - You think? Maybe i should talk to her about asking for her number the other night, rather than just leaving it at that and bumping into her in a few weeks, that'll make her think that's all i was after. I dunno though, i mean i went in there last night and handed the film back that was all. So maybe tomorrow i'll go down there sometime rather than going in again today, and seem like some addict lol. I feel it's easier to talk to her now and she wasn't completely shy, which was good, saved me from asking 21 questions continuously. I can still talk to her, that's how she left it. There's possibility of her having single friends, yes. Ive been more cautious of fixing hair lately, been going out too much in the past not giving a shit, but if im after something got to look the part.

I could speak to her about her bf, maybe it'll be easy to call her on that one, i mean if he's from the area i may know him anyway, she could of been with him a while, not long, maybe not getting on i dunno - but that last statement probably isn't something i should ask or anything like that now. Thanks brent!


@Boss - Id like to go private, i think that would solve problems in no time. But where body is litreally falling apart, you're right it would cost thousands, and i don't have that to spare, if i did, i wouldn't hesitate. I just don't understand it, having an x-ray on both knees isn't going to show any problems with surrounding tendons, if they referred me to a specialized like someone in orthopedics, some palpation and physical exams could do the trick - yet they never think of that option, even though Ive suggested it. Just going to keep on at them, it's the only thing i can do, i can't live with these problems and pain all the time, it's not something i should be getting used to at age.

What annoys me is, x-rays coming back clear for neck as i knew it would, then nothing. Almost as though they think it should be forgotten about, nothing, it's just i dunno, some low blood tests, platelets and iron, vitamin d in march, but all of these were given supplements to , easy fixes. At least SIJ pain is on the way - hopefully, then i can sit down without agony or get woken up because of it. The knees is the problem i am dieing to as im sure it'll sort out the ankle problems as that has only came on recently. Knees has been since about 15. Im sure it's to do with the Pes Anserinus muscle group.

[Martin-Boy2]

Oh yeah something else, which has got overlooked as it's really not that important. Remember i haven't been getting the chance to speak to her otherwise that would of happened long ago. When i spoke to her the other night she was at the counter on her own and the store was fairly empty - no one was queing or anything like that. Last night when i returned the film, her co-worker was serving a few people but she was free so i went up to her and handed the film back. But didn't say nothing, so i probably haven't done myself any favors. It's just i didn't really no what to say, but felt i should of approached her at least as i did speak to her the day before. She probably thinks now that's all i was interested in, but it's still early days i suppose. I just would like to speak to her within the next few days rather than leaving it like a week and thinking im scared when im not.

It's almost as though we never had that conversation the day before after giving that film back, but yeah. Im happy enough to speak to her, but it's if i haven't got her nosey co-worker looking in or a que behind me listening, i guess i don't really care about general talking, but if it's about stuff like numbers, id probably feel a bit self concious still, i dunno, im messed up lol.

[Martin-Boy2]

Yeah i always felt that if i had bumped into her in the street, which i never seem to do, then it would be much easier to talk to her and i would of spoken to her a lot earlier. I have a tendancy to overthink about un-important things, must stop that. I don't have slouchy posture or nothing like that, im quite aware of good posture so that's a plus on part, i guess the main thing is not coming across as boring, the first few conversations are the hardest of course as she's still part of a stranger, although the more i talk to her the easier it should get. Although she's usually at the counter, i would probably need to go up there to speak to her (obviously), and without buying something - it seems a little weird? Almost as if im going in there just to talk to her rather than using the store? Bit of a pain though having to buy something just to talk to someone lol, shouldn't be like that at all, should it?

Thanks again, it's nice to hear what you have to say, gives me some more ways of looking at things, not going to lie been on mind a lot lately, but that's to be expected, the more time i have to myself it's easier to think about things, but yeah, im hoping it'll all become a lot more clearer + easier in the near future.

[musculArgirl2]

x

[Martin-Boy2]

Here we go.

Yes, i am going there to talk to her, didn't use to, as times there has been films i didn't mind seeing, but most of the time it is that. Especially more recent, you can tell that, i didn't even watch the film i rented out, just a waste of money, yet it was an excuse to go to the counter. I could say something like that, it's a good idea, but im not sure where id use it. I mean if i didn't ask for her number already i could of used it, but i feel if i say something like that now it looks as though i may be coming on to her? Im not sure, in 2 minds, i mean, there's people that use the store reguarly - so it would seem myself, and If ive gone to the counter to see her, it's usually with a film so it's not like Ive gone in there and just walked up the counter without buying anything, i dunno, good business for the company, forces me to buy stuff - haha, no more.

Muscular girl i agree with what you're saying, i know she's not available right now, whatever the circumstances. But i feel if i just walk away now and don't go in there it'll seem that's all Ive gone in there for, which in a sense i have, but i don't want it to seem like that. I mean Ive asked for her number, yes, but that doesn't exactly mean im asking her out as in to be a girlfriend? I could of got to know her further and decided i don't want that from her. I guess by asking for her number, essentially i was asking for further contact, but if she has a boyfriend, maybe she didn't want me to have it as maybe he controls her and tells her what to do, or maybe she thought i was coming o nlike that, i really don't know, unless i talk to her about it, i don't want it to seem like im refusing rejection, i know she isn't avaliable, but that doesn't stop me getting to know her and talking to her, ughhh, weird.

Dunno why i did this picture lol, time on hands i guess, but you'll at least have an understanding of the store

[MissJenaKay]

Darling, I really think you need to let this go. I'm usually one to cling to things, but even I say to leave it be... I really don't think that this is healthy for you... I know that you understand she's not available, but I really think you should back off. Only go down to the store if you actually want a film to watch. Don't be distant from her, but don't try too hard, babe. I really think you need to learn to just let it go now. You've put so much into this for so long and I think now you're just holding on because you want to somehow recoup your losses or something. But I really don't think that any good will come of you trying at this anymore. I'm not saying to give up altogether on the whole situation, but you definitely need to refocus yourself.

P.S. Your artist skill is astounding, masterpiece that you made there, darling! Lol.

[Boss Man]

I'll assume that wall you added in that drawing, is highly relevant to the whole intricate plotline, of this real life story you've been living the past few weeks

I agree about letting it go, you're now going to be continuing with something that's been confirned as a non-starter and she might begin to think you're a can't take no for an answer type guy, because trying to get to know her as friends, when she didn't say that she wanted to do that either, is going to possibly look to her, like you still want what you can't have.

Being friends would be awkward for her, wondering if at some point you'd cross the boundaries and try to want what was denied you, because you couldn't block certain feelings out forever.

Let it lie and move on. It will be better in the long term. Right now you might be denying yourself something more possible, by focusing on a no-go, because after all, you can't have something with anyone else, if you're not looking for it because you're still focusing on something else.

[Martin-Boy2]

Oh yeah i know im not planning on "trying it on" with her or nothing like that but just talking to her in the store. She didn't say nothing bout being friends, except for talking to her in the store, Ive only spoke to her like once properly so i wouldn't of expected her to say "lets be friends".

I just don't want it to seem as though that's all i wanted i mean, not using the store much after she's said that, i don't want it to seem as though it's a reason for stopping me going in there, she didn't seem overally bothered and im not thinking because she's got a bf that i cant use the store.

[Martin-Boy2]

I happened to go to the store but no luck. I checked if there were any films that caught eye but weren't really keen on any of the ones that had available for now. I did have a look if she was in, i didn't see her but didn't think much of it anyway. The store was pretty busy tonight, at least 10+ people, where as the other day it was empty and she was at the counter alone - i had chance.

I did happen 2 see she was working as she was serving someone, but i thought it's packed in here lousy wheathered day and the weekend, and i can't really afford to be moping around for 20+mins just for the odd chance of speaking to her again, i thought not going back down that route as the outcome i would of hoped for wouldn't be there anyway so it's not as important to speak to her now. Then i didn't see her serving a few moments later so i just forgot about it and left the store.

Regardless of whether she likes me or not, isn't the point, i know she's not available for me right now, she may want to be, she may not want to be, i dunno, which is why i think it's a good reason to speak to her as it wouldn't hurt to have some girl-friends.

I don't think i'll bother going down there until sometime next week for now, probably next tuesday, as im pretty free that day and i'll be getting haircut in the morning - not that it matters, but it would make sense to. If i got the chance to speak to her i was planning on saying a few words like those suggested above and just finding out a bit more about her. Id like to get to know her better and become potential friends, but i really don't think im going to bother if it's a case of the same old finding the chance to speak to her again. I think this is why i "rushed" it the other night when i spoke to her and asked for her number, because i thought, i finally have a chance - which has been the biggest part of the problem in the past, to speak to her that i thought i really could not be bothered to wait around with small talk and jump in at the deep end, so there was shot.

Anyway, it's less busy during the week so i'll try to catch her in there sometime next week, i think it was tuesday i spoke to her so that would be a weeks time i spoke again if i happen to get the chance, just would like to clear the air a little rather than speaking to her in a months time as i wouldn't want to come across as just a chancer that wanted her number.

I may take a before and after photo of hair, to see if it really does get butchered, it''ll probably look neater nonetheless.

But im not promising anything as i don't like photos being taken of me as it is, let alone showing them!

[MissJenaKay]

Aww, Martin, please please please! I love seeing people's haircuts. As lame as that makes me, but I love haircuts and I love seeing before and afters. Haha. I probably sound like a right psychopath, but oh well. xD I'll be a happy little dinosaur if you do c: Lul. I still think you should move on from this movie store girl.

[Martin-Boy2]

Feel self concious about doing this sorta thing, but what the hell

Before;
http://i56.tinypic.com/11giwax.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://i56.tinypic.com/33ok6rd.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://i55.tinypic.com/2uemsuf.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

And after;
http://i53.tinypic.com/a47eb7.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://i55.tinypic.com/23kxe9z.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://i56.tinypic.com/24b2f6w.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;