Sunday. Thanks Les, I guess you are not alone on the treadmill fear department
A friend told me it takes time to get used to it. I say it takes time & courage (which I don't have yet). Oh well, another thing on to do list for 2010
. Ok, today is LAST day writing in this journal. I'll be starting another journal under Bikini Bod by June 2010. It has been a great journey so far. Remember, I still have a long way to go. The first "phase" was hard. I mainly concentrated on loosing weight (from 139 - 125), tone body and get flat abs. Well, I did loose the weight, body has a little definition (can really see it on arms and back) and tummy is not completely flat, but is flatter than before
. I've always been confident, but not happy with tummy. I like the way body looked (with clothes), but was embarrased to be naked.
Confession: I'm not completely happy with bod when I'm naked, but at least I'm not as embarrased as I used to be. Still, I believe I can look better and feel better. I know that I didn't work as hard as I should nor had a completely clean strict diet. But I wanted to follow a "normal" diet & exercise plan. Something not too hard, a plan I can see myself doing for the long run. So far, I have made a few adjustments to meals, got family used to "new" receipes and have been able to maintain weight. Not going to lie, every now & then I have a mocha latte (YUMM!), a pizza, etc. All favorite junk/fatty foods, without loosing control & sight of what journey is all about: better health, body & mind. I'm thankful I have a wonderful family (even though they drive me insane sometimes), great mentors & support system in you guys & the desire to be the best I can be. This journey started with a main goal in mind: "New body by December". I did it. When I look in the mirror I feel body has changed and therefore, I have a new body. However, is not the body I've dreamed of. This second journey is search to achieving a better body. More defined, healthier and better looking
. I'm extremely nervous, anxious and scared about new goal. You see, I haven't worn a bikini in 21 years. It scares the heck out of me to fail this mission. One thing I know, I will fight until the end to get what I want & hope to finish journey with a HOT body, better health, higher confidence level and a big smile. So, please pray for me, keep your fingers cross and wish me luck, because If to achieve it I have to keep the same energy & exercise level of the past two days, I know I'm in deep trouble
Once again,
THANK YOU GUYS & KEEP READING & WRITING! journey continues...