Don't give up Corina. Remember, it's not just about what you can see, but what you can't see. The way you've been trying to live is importent for overall wellbeing and the time you invest in yourself is importent and you ARE worth it.
I know it must be frustrating, when you feel like the effort is not that rewarding, but be proud of not turning to dumb products, supplements or fad workouts / diets to paper over the cracks for a bit, because you're worth more than that.
It won't be asy and it won't always make sense, or feel right, but in the long term it will make a difference. Giving up will potentially allow health issues in the future to happen, that could be partially or even totally irreversible, that could have been prevented.
You deserve a good healthy future, because you're a great person and you just need to recognise the value and worth you possess.
If you ever need a little personal one to one, PM me anytime and let know how you're feeling, if you don't want to dump things on friends or family. Moderators can try to be here for you in emotionla and mental regards too, because they play a big part in physical success as well.
I know you CAN do this and I know deep down you want to do it and make a difference to yourself. You've demonstrated here many times, that you have a quite beautiful attitude to others and as long as this site exists, we will never abandon people like you and give up on you, but if you give up on you or tell us how you are doing / feeling too infrequently, then we can't do much to help, which is our aim, to help you to help yourself

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Whatever you do, GOOD LUCK and don't forget that you are a bit special and you deserve a better future for yourself physically. It will take time, patience and understanding, but if you're in it for the long haul, things should eventually work out for you.
Don't give up on yourself okay, because we won't and I certainly don't like to see people undervaluing themselves and feeling like they are wasting their time, because you're not misses, you really aren't and when yo ucan truly see the value and worth in yourself, people like me see, you'll realise that despite everything, taking proper physical care of yourself WILL make for a potentially happier, healthier, longer life and when it boils down to it, isn't that what you really want deep down?
Keep pushing and kepe believing in yourself Corina, you're a truly wonderful lady and your continued efforts in the past made me very proud of you. Be proud of yourself like you've deserved to be, by getting your training and exercise back on track again and taking more well deserved time for you, to improve the body you have and achieve the benefits it can bring.
I'm sending you a
BIG PAT ON THE BACK and letting you know again, that I am here for you and so is this site.
You deserve a good life, so chin up, make yourself proud, don't give up and stay positive okay

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YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!

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