Cassie's 2010 Contest Prep Journal

[Boopster]

Lynne!!!! How you doing girl????

[fitoverforty]

Hi Michele! I'm doing good. Been missing you around here, and seriously, I was JUST thinking about you the other day, wondering how you are. Good to hear from you again!

[ironwill]

Wow....I really am always behind. An older gentleman once told me.....Marry the right person there "ain't nuthin' better" marry the wrong one and there "ain't nuthin' worse" So I'm really glad you dealt with it b4 you were locked in. Your a Super special person, with tons of oppurtunity, and future ahead. Keep smiling, and be patient, your still young, though it may not feel that way.........think CONTEST.......

[cassiegose]

Wow....I really am always behind. An older gentleman once told me.....Marry the right person there "ain't nuthin' better" marry the wrong one and there "ain't nuthin' worse" So I'm really glad you dealt with it b4 you were locked in. Your a Super special person, with tons of oppurtunity, and future ahead. Keep smiling, and be patient, your still young, though it may not feel that way.........think CONTEST.......

Thank you for your kind words m&m..errrr... I mean ironwill.
I know I did the right thing. I've had a smile on face since we broke up and ex is also really relieved that we finally had "the talk". We're very good friends and we were trying to make that friendship something that its not. While I cherish his friendship, I know that had we gotten married we would have been divorced in less than 5 years. Soooo I'll keep smiling and keep plugging along.

[ironwill]

Soooo I'll keep smiling and keep plugging along.

I sincerely doubt you "plug" anywhere. Bounce more like (:

Cassie is Tiggerific, is that what ur saying? Sorry, I have kids, and perhaps watched to many Tigger movie's........ ...and have eaten to many ahhhh..... well you know.

[cassiegose]

She's even adorable when she's having a bad day. I honestly cannot see her plugging through or being super mad without just being so cute at it everyone pats her on the head.

LOL! Awe! You guys are sweet!Lifes too short to let things get you down for too long.

[cassiegose]

Ok time for an update.

On Saturday I was 7 weeks out from the first show. So today I am about 6 1/2 weeks out and 9 1/2 weeks out from the second show. For the first show I feel like theres a chance that I *may* not be 100% ready however its a small show and I could really use the stage practice so am going to go for it regardless. The weight is coming off alot slower for these shows than it was for the first two, however goal was to take it off a bit slower this time to try to preserve more muscle and keep myself sane since I'm going to be on this diet until May. I have to continue to remind myself that I want to take it off slow as sometimes I find myself wanting fast and instant changes and thats just not the best way to go about it. Right now I'm shooting for a loss of 1 lb per week. I'm weighing about 130 so if i can strip off 6-7 more lbs by the show I think I'll be right where I need to be.

The diet is going well. Its pretty strict right now but I think I've gotten used to it so its not all that bad. Tomorrow is leg day so i'm planning on adding some carbs to meals today to help fuel that workout. I'm also thinking about doing a 2000 calorie day on Sunday to really help shake things up. calories have been pretty low lately and i'm thinking a high calorie day might help to shock the system. I think body is starting to adjust to what I've been doing and I can't afford a plateau with the shows being so close so I'm going to try to prevent a platuea by shaking things up before it happens.

workouts have been really hit and miss lately. Saturday was a HORRIBLE workout. Saturday workouts are supposed to be the hardest of the week and last Saturday's was a real struggle. I ended up cutting it short then went back on Sunday to see if I could get in a good workout and felt awesome.. had a great workout! Yesterdays morning workout was decent and yesterday's afternoon cardio session was pretty much torture. This mornings spin class was amazing! I actually worked so hard I thought i was going to puke at one point. Thats how you know you're having a good workout! LOL! The class didn't appreciate energy this morning. The more chipper I became the more they glared and the more they glared at me the harder the class got. They should learn thats it not nice to glare at the spinning instructor. LOL!

I suppose I'll update on personal life as well since theres been alot going on in that department. Things are going really well with ex and I. He is still living with me and will be until June when he is done with school here. I have a feeling we are going to be good friends for the rest of our lives and I'm glad that it has ended on such good terms. With that said, I do have one minor complaint... something that is kind of baffling me. For 2 years I dated ex. During that time he had 2 gym memberships but never really used them steadily and never really took care of himself. Being a health fanatic, his lack of motivation really drove me nuts; I guess I felt like i was working hard to keep body healthy and fit and he was just kind of let himself go. Sooo yesterday I was at the gym for afternoon workout and guess who I run into!?!?! ex. Wtf? Last night he was also asking about certain exercises and asking what kind of protein powder he should get. I don't understand. I never nagged him about exercising while we were together but did try to encourage him to workout. Less than a week after we break up he decides that hes ready to start taking care of himself? I'm confused.

Ok I suppose thats all I have to say today. Thank you all for your continued encouragement. I hope all is well with everybody!

Cassie

[Nokie173]

Just input….. Since he is single now… He wants to know what he can do to improve himself. Maybe how he feels and looks towards his image? Just like when you felt like a new woman the next day after you guys broke up. Now, I guess he wants to feel like a new man? I don’t know… just thoughts since he is asking you for help with fitness stuff and in the gym now.

[Boopster]

Your the fitness queen!!!! Who else would he ask? IDK Casssie...maybe he was just trying to make conversation, maybe his underwear was too tight. Heaven knows what was going on in his head. The good thing is you are both still civil to each other and that's what counts. Glad to hear you are still keeping focused and I'm sure you'll do fantastic! Think positive and keep your goals set high

[Boss Man]

Perhaps it's a rebound thing.

1. Finding some stuff to do, that keeps him out of your face a bit more, so the civility doesn't deteriorate.

2. Finding something to do to replace the times you would have bene cosy together and aren't. He's getting some kind of emotional high withdrawal and needs something else to help him replace it.

3. He's thinking ahead and wants to look good for the next person he dates. Sounds like a bit of an "oh god", sort of thing, but you never know.

[fitoverforty]

Did you ask him why? If so, I'm curious to know what he said. Since I don't know him...could this could be a way to make you a bit jealous, like - "hmph...he never workout out for ME" kind of thing? Or maybe like others said, he is trying to improve his look for his new dating life. Are you two going to date others while you still share a home? I am sure there are going to be alot of changes, and will feel strange for a while. Maybe it took breaking up, for him to take a serious look at his life and how he needs to improve on it to be a better, healthier person in the future. You may begin to see each other in a different light, now that the pressure is off on the "romantic" part. But it is good that you are working out the friendship part, that is a rare thing. You would be an awesome friend for anyone to be lucky to have in their life, especially an "ex"!

[cassiegose]

Perhaps it's a rebound thing.

1. Finding some stuff to do, that keeps him out of your face a bit more, so the civility doesn't deteriorate.

2. Finding something to do to replace the times you would have bene cosy together and aren't. He's getting some kind of emotional high withdrawal and needs something else to help him replace it.

3. He's thinking ahead and wants to look good for the next person he dates. Sounds like a bit of an "oh god", sort of thing, but you never know.

1. He shows up at the gym the same time that I go for afternoon cardio.

2. We haven't really been 'cozy' for the past 6 months so nothing has really changed with his schedule from when we were dating.

3. This could definitely be it. When we first started dating he knew how active I am so made it a point to let me know that he also worked out. Then after we started getting serious (a couple months into the relationship) he stopped working out.

[cassiegose]

Did you ask him why? If so, I'm curious to know what he said. Since I don't know him...could this could be a way to make you a bit jealous, like - "hmph...he never workout out for ME" kind of thing? Or maybe like others said, he is trying to improve his look for his new dating life. Are you two going to date others while you still share a home? I am sure there are going to be alot of changes, and will feel strange for a while. Maybe it took breaking up, for him to take a serious look at his life and how he needs to improve on it to be a better, healthier person in the future. You may begin to see each other in a different light, now that the pressure is off on the "romantic" part. But it is good that you are working out the friendship part, that is a rare thing. You would be an awesome friend for anyone to be lucky to have in their life, especially an "ex"!

I did ask him why. He said hes been getting anxiety lately and decided to go back to the gym. I just don't understand why all of a sudden. Not to talk trash or anything... but hes been sitting around on his hiney for the past 6 months so don't understand why all of a sudden he feels like he needs to be more active.

As for dating others while living together... its possible it could happen. I think we're going to kind of cross that bridge when we get to it and work around it keep it from being too akward. To be honest things haven't been good for a while so this breakup hasn't been overly traumatic. I think we both saw it coming and were ready for it. As for the frienship part.. lol... thats not rare with me. I'm actually friends with all of ex's. They are all really great people, just not "the one" for me and i've never felt like it was necessary to cut them completely out of life.

Sooo we'll see how the ex's exercise routine goes. Hopefully he keeps it up as he really does need to be more active.

[ironwill]

I think a lot of guys get motivated to get in better shape when they find themselves single. They want to look there best, and as attractive as possible for a new person. Though, I don't know if ladies are as visually motivated/stimulated as men are. Also, looking at what he is losing, ahhhhh pretty big shoes to fill. He was engaged to a Fitness Model/ Athlete, Super nice person etc. etc. Not to swell your head, but if he's not on his best game, he's going to go backwards. Hope that doesn't sound mean.........

[cassiegose]

I think a lot of guys get motivated to get in better shape when they find themselves single. They want to look there best, and as attractive as possible for a new person. Though, I don't know if ladies are as visually motivated/stimulated as men are. Also, looking at what he is losing, ahhhhh pretty big shoes to fill. He was engaged to a Fitness Model/ Athlete, Super nice person etc. etc. Not to swell your head, but if he's not on his best game, he's going to go backwards. Hope that doesn't sound mean.........

You're right. I am quite the catch and hes definitely got some BIG shoes to fill. I may just be irreplaceable!?! LOL!!! Just kidding. I'm really not that conceited. So I've thought it over and I've decided to be HAPPY that hes taking the steps to improve his health and his body. I've also decided that I will do everything in power to help him achieve his goals. It still bothers me a bit that he chooses to go to the gym at the exact time that I'm there for afternoon cardio... but whatever. I guess with us being roommates its not exactly like i can avoid him anyways.

Thanks for listening to me vent and being there with answers.