Jena's Journal.

[MissJenaKay]

@ Allison :: I'd try them if I could..... :/ :/

@ Rebekah :: I'd really like to join either ActOUT or Spectrum, and JMAC or Japan Club. The reason they're in sets is because they're kinda the same clubs. Also.... I don't do sports. They scare me and make me feel awful because I'm not physically talented. As for the newspaper, you have to have face to face sources for the articles, you're not allowed to get ALL your facts from the internet and you have to have at least 4 different people as sources. As we know, I'm shy, it wouldn't work...

[Boss Man]

Hey Jena.

I know you don't mean to be stubborn or awkward, I more than most know the extent of your life history and I know how life has shaped you as a person, so I know your fears and anxieties are not overblown, or over inflated, but I also know the person you are inside. I've seen glimpses of the person that does exist in your words. It's a beautiful you, not a broken and permanently damaged you

Use the search facility to find posts by a person called "Rage". Rage is the old username of Amna's, she's now known as Skully.

When she posted under that old name of Rage, she was like you, self loathing, depressed sometimes, couldn't stick at a workout or diet plan for longer than a week and hated University, even tried to see councillors, with persuasion from us.

Now during her days as "Skully", on here, she told us about how she still had issues with University and one or two tutors, but since then she's become a published writer and her strength gains and consistency with eating and training have flourished.

I couldn't be more proud of her for how she has overcome a lot of negatives, personal hatred and self loathing of herself and others around her and she's only about 3 years older than you, so she's not someone who's speaking from the persepctive of 20-25+ years ago, or even 10 years ago, when she was that "other person", if you want to call her that.

She's experienced what you're going through and she's known some of the things you know and feel. She's probably more knowledgeable about the things you feel as a person, than any of us and she lives in Dubai, where there's religious and social aspects to her life, that may sometimes restrict what she can and can't do, but she's still tried to better herself and overcome that person who at 18, looked like someone that couldn't change themselves even when they tried.

I don't want you to pour over loads and lods of Skully and Rage entries, but I want you to see the difference in her 3 years ago to now. She's not completely become a new person and I daresay she'll have days when she's angry, frustrated, and sporting a "can't do" attitude to certain things, but she has done things I always believed she could do and I never turned back on her, even when some may have thought she was a lost cause who couldn't be helped.

So try lookig up some of those old entries past and present and that and see what happens. If she can change herself like she has, so can you. Trust me it can be done

BIG BIG HUGS.

[MissJenaKay]

Hey Jena.

I know you don't mean to be stubborn or awkward, I more than most know the extent of your life history and I know how life has shaped you as a person, so I know your fears and anxieties are not overblown, or over inflated, but I also know the person you are inside. I've seen glimpses of the person that does exist in your words. It's a beautiful you, not a broken and permanently damaged you

Use the search facility to find posts by a person called "Rage". Rage is the old username of Amna's, she's now known as Skully.

When she posted under that old name of Rage, she was like you, self loathing, depressed sometimes, couldn't stick at a workout or diet plan for longer than a week and hated University, even tried to see councillors, with persuasion from us.

Now during her days as "Skully", on here, she told us about how she still had issues with University and one or two tutors, but since then she's become a published writer and her strength gains and consistency with eating and training have flourished.

I couldn't be more proud of her for how she has overcome a lot of negatives, personal hatred and self loathing of herself and others around her and she's only about 3 years older than you, so she's not someone who's speaking from the persepctive of 20-25+ years ago, or even 10 years ago, when she was that "other person", if you want to call her that.

She's experienced what you're going through and she's known some of the things you know and feel. She's probably more knowledgeable about the things you feel as a person, than any of us and she lives in Dubai, where there's religious and social aspects to her life, that may sometimes restrict what she can and can't do, but she's still tried to better herself and overcome that person who at 18, looked like someone that couldn't change themselves even when they tried.

I don't want you to pour over loads and lods of Skully and Rage entries, but I want you to see the difference in her 3 years ago to now. She's not completely become a new person and I daresay she'll have days when she's angry, frustrated, and sporting a "can't do" attitude to certain things, but she has done things I always believed she could do and I never turned back on her, even when some may have thought she was a lost cause who couldn't be helped.

So try lookig up some of those old entries past and present and that and see what happens. If she can change herself like she has, so can you. Trust me it can be done

BIG BIG HUGS.

I've seen her stuff as Skully, I'll take a look into her old entries, I guess. Also, Boss, not everyone can do it. I've seen it happen. I don't want to be one of those people and so I keep trying, but you never know.

Edit :: Boss, I searched, the system says that that username doesn't exist.

[fit-fanatic-2025]

I'd really like to join either ActOUT or Spectrum, and JMAC or Japan Club.

Just out of curiosity (i've been away from the college scene for a while) what are those clubs about, I'm not familiar with them? If they are really something that takes a lot of socialness maybe you could try something on a smaller level. You could maybe even do an online creative writing class or something like that?? Even this forum is social for you, I know its probably not the same as college but.. Its a step in the right direction though.


We are all really pulling for you Jena!

[MissJenaKay]

I'd really like to join either ActOUT or Spectrum, and JMAC or Japan Club.

Just out of curiosity (i've been away from the college scene for a while) what are those clubs about, I'm not familiar with them? If they are really something that takes a lot of socialness maybe you could try something on a smaller level. You could maybe even do an online creative writing class or something like that?? Even this forum is social for you, I know its probably not the same as college but.. Its a step in the right direction though.


We are all really pulling for you Jena!

actOUT and Spectrum - LGTBQA clubs

JMAC (Japanese Media Appreciation Club) and Japan Club - Clubs about japanese culture and such.

Online class?? I'm perfectly outgoing online.... I don't need help with online. I need a life in real life. I have no real life other than the internet.

Also, thank y'all. :]

[fit-fanatic-2025]

Good to know about how you feel online. Maybe make one small goal to go to the easiest socially speaking club you think you wnat to go too. one time. And then go from there. Its hard for me to make the goals, you need to make them I think I was just trying to think of ideas. You know what your capable of.

[MissJenaKay]

9:20 Wake up

9:34
--1 c KASHI Go Lean Crunch!
-- 1/2 c Fat free milk

9:57
--25 minutes on Bike
-- Crunches :: 2 sets of 15
-- Side Oblique Crunches :: 2 sets of 15
-- Leg Raise :: 2 sets of 20 sec
-- Plank :: 2 sets of 20 sec

10:44
-- Honey Mustard Chicken Sandwich
-- Milk with protein powder

2:15
--Burrito Bowl (As usual)

4:45
-- California Rolls
-- Fresh grapes and pineapple
-- Frappuccino (need caffeine D:

9:00
-- Apple
-- String Cheese
-- FUZE Slenderize

@ Rebekah :: I'll see what I can do.

@ Allison :: Well... I am pretty tomboyish anyway. I wouldn't be surprised if people thought I was a lesbian anyway. But even if they do think that, they're a little bit right. I'm not straight, but I'm not gay either. However, even though LGBT clubs have the most accepting people, they're also extremely out there and the people in those club are way to energetic and social for me. The reason I went to a DePaulia meeting instead of any of those is because I figured that DePaulia would be the least strenuous socially, and I was right. I wasn't made to talk to anyone or anything like that.

[MissJenaKay]

Hey, hey, hey! "They're a little bit right" sounds to me like you don't care what they think. Sounds like a little bit of progress to me!

The fact that the folks in those groups are the most outgoing should be a positive thing...maybe they'll be able to help you come out of your shell.

The fact that they are so outgoing is scary though. Also, I like people not knowing whether I'm straight or not. It allows me to be who I am to be without having to let anyone know. Since I got harrassed back home for it.

[Boss Man]

Jena, the posts you wanted to check out were listed under the name of (Rage), that does include the Parenthesise, hence why you couldn't find them .

[MissJenaKay]

Jena, the posts you wanted to check out were listed under the name of (Rage), that does include the Parentheses, hence why you couldn't find them .

Okay. I'll check it out.

[Boss Man]

Doesn't matter whether you're Straight, Lesbian, Bi-sexual or just mostly attracted to men or women, but see no harm in occasionally playing in a different field once in a while, the fact is the ones who mind can get bent and the ones who don't can potentially get acceptance.

The only thing that matters is who YOU are and what IT means .

The value you have as a person and the potential for it to grow and gain more worth, is the important aspect here. When you learn to accept what you could become, it makes it a little easier to get there, because then you don't see that potential you as just an impossible dream, you see that person as a potential reality.

Don't let people make you feel second best when you're not. See yourself as someone with value and worth and believe in it. When you do those things, it could help to make your future a lot brighter and more rewarding.

You're a great, great person Jena. Chin up and Good luck .

[MissJenaKay]

Doesn't matter whether you're Straight, Lesbian, Bi-sexual or just mostly attracted to men or women, but see no harm in occasionally playing in a different field once in a while, the fact is the ones who mind can get bent and the ones who don't can potentially get acceptance.

The only thing that matters is who YOU are and what IT means .

The value you have as a person and the potential for it to grow and gain more worth, is the important aspect here. When you learn to accept what you could become, it makes it a little easier to get there, because then you don't see that potential you as just an impossible dream, you see that person as a potential reality.

Don't let people make you feel second best when you're not. See yourself as someone with value and worth and believe in it. When you do those things, it could help to make your future a lot brighter and more rewarding.

You're a great, great person Jena. Chin up and Good luck .

Thanks, Boss. As always you're a great support. Thanks

[MissJenaKay]

Okaay, guys, I was at cousin's house with her and her husband and three year old son this weekend so I was kept pretty busy so I didn't keep track of what I ate and workouts consisted of playing with said three-year-old. Luckily I don't have to worry about eating crappy at cousin's house because she is very health conscious and with her son being allergic to eggs and dairy products, there aren't any junk foods around. I'll get back to tracking stuff tomorrow, though and I just thought I'd let you all know what I've been up to.

[Boss Man]

Be strong and chin up and remember each new day is a chance to be positive and try to make a difference to your future .

[MissJenaKay]

Be strong and chin up and remember each new day is a chance to be positive and try to make a difference to your future .

Thanks, boss.