Jena's Journal.

[MissJenaKay]

Congrats on the weight loss Jena. Like everyone has been telling me, Keep it up!!

Thanks, Becky. c:

[Boss Man]

It might only be 3.3lbs now, but it has the potential to get better and it WILL get better and in doing so, you should hopefully find a more stabilising effect on your moods sometimes, when you can feel more positively about yourself .

[MissJenaKay]

It might only be 3.3lbs now, but it has the potential to get better and it WILL get better and in doing so, you should hopefully find a more stabilising effect on your moods sometimes, when you can feel more positively about yourself .

Thanks, Boss, I'll try to keep that in mind. Things are really rough, but I'm certainly hoping that things will get better soon.

Todays Totals

Calories - 1756
Exercise - 443
Net Calories - 1313
Fat - 61
Carbs - 164
Fibre - 20
Sugar - 68
Protein - 141
Sodium - 4531 (Holy.... what? Lol. No clue what happened here. Lol)

On the slightly bright side, I have internet access again, on the super crappy downside, I'm struggling immensely to figure out how to finance everything that goes into getting ready to go back to university. I'm stressed out hardcore, to the point I've had a really horrible headache ever since I came out to dad. :/

[Boss Man]

I'm sure you'll figure it out .

Be strong and GOOD LUCK.

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks, Boss.

Todays Totals

Calories - 1755
Exercise - 323
Net Calories - 1432
Fat - 56
Carbs - 216
Fibre - 23
Sugar - 64
Protein - 101
Sodium - 2606

[MissJenaKay]

Today was a horrible day diet wise so far, I went out shopping with mom and brother and we stopped for lunch. I wanted to go to the sushi place, but they wanted friendly's.... And friendly's sells nothing healthy. :c So I had a fish wrap figuring it would be better than a burger or something like that. I also switched out the fries that came with it for mashed potatoes with no butter or gravy, so it. Is probably less than the 1300 I got from the nutrtion facts for the meal online. I also haven't worked out yet today. I might later but I'm feeling really down and I've been really bored with working out lately. I'll post totals for the day later, after I've decided whether or not I'm going to work out.

[musculArgirl2]

I give you credit. Your doing really well and you are at the same time are having not the easiest personal life too. A hard thing to do.

Hang in there! What are you doing for workouts right now? Are you still doing the on demand videos?

[MissJenaKay]

I give you credit. Your doing really well and you are at the same time are having not the easiest personal life too. A hard thing to do.

Hang in there! What are you doing for workouts right now? Are you still doing the on demand videos?

Thanks, it's one of the only things that I can do that I can control, so it makes me feel a little better to be able to control at least something in life right now. To workout I switch it up between on demand workout videos, Just Dance II for the Wii, and I broke out old DDR Supernova game and pad (thankfully I have one of the metal pads so it has lasted. I've had the game since I was 11 I think.)

Update on yesterday: I didn't end up working out because got distracted on working on a new drawing. proof

Yesterday's Totals (ew.)

Calories - 1871
Fat - 82
Carbs - 233
Fibre - 22
Sugar - 41
Protein - 65
Sodium - 3350

[Boss Man]

One thing I'll say is, even when you feel like not working out too much, remember why you do it and then it might make it a bit easier to do.

The real test is being able to do it, even when you don't feel like it. It makes those ones extra special, if you are someone that sometimes struggles to want to, because you know you overcame a small mental or emotional barrier to get it done.

I know you are capable of developing that attitude towards working out, because it is important to do it and such an attitude will help and also because you ARE worth it.

You're a great artist by the way, so I'm sure you'll find a way to put your wellbeing and your passions on an even keel .

Keep believing in yourself okay and be strong. We believe in you and we all, including myself, want you to do well.

Good luck and chin up, because I'm proud of you at the moment and I want you to be proud of yourself, because the effort and the doumenting are positive steps forwards, as is the mild improvement in the way you express yourself .

I think you've mellowed a touch more now.

[MissJenaKay]

Well, Boss, in defense, I hadn't taken a day off working out in about a week, so it's not the end of the world. Besides, I worked out today. c: I also made some delicious, healthy calzones for dinner. c: I'll update with daily totals later this evening.

[Boss Man]

Well that's fine then. I didn't think you were slipping into laxe habits, but I admit I hadn't factored in how much you'd pushed yourself and of course you must be mindful to not over do it, because too much working out can be counterproductive.

[musculArgirl2]

Your calzones sound good. Yummy. Nice drawing too.

[MissJenaKay]

Well that's fine then. I didn't think you were slipping into laxe habits, but I admit I hadn't factored in how much you'd pushed yourself and of course you must be mindful to not over do it, because too much working out can be counterproductive.

I'm trying to make sure I remember to take a day off once a week.

Your calzones sound good. Yummy. Nice drawing too.

Thanks, Becky. A whole calzoon is onlly 300 calories the way I make them c: They're delicious.

In news regarding the drawing I put in about 2 more hours of work on it today. About 2 hours spent on her hair, which I did before cooking dinner, so I had saved and went to cook dinner, the other four I did on her dress, choker and hat... then right before I was getting ready to start on her hat, I did something stupid and lost the four hours of work. I lliteraly cried. I need to learn to save more often or learn how to introduce an autosave feature to art program. I guess I now get more colouring practice. :\

Todays Totals

Calories - 1654
Exercise - 295
Net Calories - 1359
Fat - 48
Carbs - 204
Fibre - 12
Sugar - 64
Protein - 101
Sodium - 3099

[MissJenaKay]

Extremely disappointed with weigh in today. I somehow gained 2 pounds. This is extra disappointing considering last Wednesday I had lost .9 pounds more after Monday weigh in, now I've freaking gained back all the weight I've lost in the past two weeks. I'm very angry. I worked realy hard this past week and I GAINED weight. I've been eating better meals and more regularly and I've been under a net calorie intake of 1440 calories a day. What am I doing wrong? Amm I not eating enough? Am I exercising too much? I don't know what I'm doing wrong. It's not like I've been lifting weights so I don't think it's muscle gain. After the angering stupidity of night last night, this is really not what I needed today. Why can't I be like everyone else in family with insane metabolisms? I'm getting really sick of hearing mother say " daughter is heavy but she takes care of herself, she always tries to look nice." I hate this.

If I look at it as weight off highest weight at 250.4 on July 22nd, then I've lost a total of 3.9 pounds. However, if I go y when I started using myfitnesspal I've only lost 1.3 pounds.

This is stupid.

[musculArgirl2]

I know it's disappointing. But is it possible it might be water retention? Honestly i weighed myself this morning than i made a little trip to the restroom weighed myself again and i gained 6 ounces. Don't get too caught up in it. Just keep doing what your doing, stay positive the weight will come off.

It seems like your eating more than 1450 calories. Just based on what you've posted the last week?